Hi;
i came here cause i lost hope, i think this could be the best place i can get help and be understood, i think too much and i want bad things to happen to me sometimes, i don’t why ?! I lost my love few months ago i really loved him from the bottom of my heart he was my first, he’s always droping hot and cold on me, he go for months and then come back and everytime i took him back like a fool (the story is more complecated than that)…so he texted me few days before and asked to keep contact so we talked and talked about it for 2 hours and asked him he had to change, but he didn’t want to, he contacted me days later i wasn’t availble, he just gave up i guess cause i didn’t hear from him in days.
Now i’m confused what to think cause a part of me knows that he really loves me knows that he well be back again and everytime and that we will end up together, i can’t chase this tought cause somehow i’m so sure about it i think he really loves me that what make it hard to move on, in other way i’m telling to myself you had your thing it’s over now (like we hear it in songs you know! ) part of me love that it’s what we here in most songs that one special love lost and how it’s sad and impossible to get things into place again and blablabla (i won’t lie i’ve always wished to live something like that, like i said i like bad things to happen to me don’t know why),but i think it’s sad if it’s a true and to loose that, and an other part tell me you weren’t special or anything for him, you just got fooled by a bad a guy and that’s it just move on, and i can’t lie i love this one cause it’s so easy to accept the fact it’s over…i’m sorry if i’m not clear enough even i confuse myself :).
love <3