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September 21, 2017 at 2:51 pm #169719Little CoconutParticipant
Hi everyone. Really personal information here—I don’t have many people to talk to, and I’m hoping to find some help here.
I’m 26—I met my boyfriend (32) almost exactly one year ago at a friend’s wedding, and we hit it off right away. We spent the entire night together, and continued texting and calling one another well after the night we met (we lived in a separate states).He has a son (super awesome, 2 years old, the best baby), and was super honest about everything with me from the beginning. After a few weeks of talking long distance, he came to visit me, and three times more after that. Each weekend he was there was like magic, and we both shared how strong our feelings were for one another. We both thought we found our person… and I’m not normally someone who believed in that, but meeting him changed my mind.
Over the next few months, we talked everyday, 2 hour phone conversations at night, constant texting, etc. I was working a temporary gig in a city a few states away, and come February my contract ended. I was debating moving to be with him—but he lived in LA, a city I used to live in, but really disliked. And yet, something strong was pulling me to him, and so I went and visited to try the city a second time. As I was gearing up to go back, I was contacted by a friend for interview for my dream job—her company was moving from NY to LA and she wanted to know if I was interested (she knew I no longer lived in LA, and had no idea I was dating someone, so this felt really serendipitous.) I came back, met his son, loved his son, loved his neighborhood, got the job, and felt like everything was perfect.
We didn’t move in together, though he wanted to, because I wanted to be close to work and his house was still full of things from his son’s mother (they lived together for a year, even when broken up.) Their relationship isn’t great—they were dating for four months when she got pregnant, and they broke up shortly after their son was born. I’ve met her, and we’re cordial. She says she likes me, and I totally respect her as the baby’s mother. I read all the websites and books and am earnestly trying to do this right.
The first few months of my boyfriend and I being together in LA were amazing—but since the end of July, I’ve started to feel a little bit anxious about our relationship. One, his ex keeps changing where she wants to live, and the idea of planning my whole life around another woman is NOT something I want to do. My boyfriend is of the same mind, and assures me that he will take care of us—he makes a good living, and currently provides for him and the babe, as his ex has no income. She is currently getting her degree, so we’re staying in California for that, but I’m worried that she’ll dictate so much of what we do with our lives. I’m a writer, and my boyfriend is FULLY supportive—amazingly, unquestionably so—and I can work from wherever, but I don’t want to be dragged all over the country.
Two, I have no idea how to date someone with a kid without feeling selfish. My boyfriend gets upset when I turn down invitations to spend time with him and his son—which is pretty rare. I love this little babe, and I love playing with him/making him dinner/singing him songs. That being said, I also love my alone time and having time to stay home and write or read by myself. He calls us a “little family” which I love, but I’m also afraid of stepping on the mom’s toes, and I want it to be clear that I’m not this kids mother. Furthermore, I’m wondering if I’m even cut out to be a stepmother. I really thought I could handle it at first, but now that I’m learning more and dealing with new feelings of jealousy and frustration, I don’t know if I can. For instance, my birthday is coming up and without asking me, my boyfriend planned a night with him and his child at his house. (He DID plan something just us for the next night, but still). Is this something I should want? Am I not cut out for this role because I’d rather have a night in the city, just me and my boyfriend? I’m afraid of bringing stuff like this up without hurting my boyfriend’s feelings…I’ve never seen someone so loving toward their child. He’s an amazing father… It’s one of the things I love about him.
All of this anxiety is making me question the relationship, and therefore I’m being so sensitive to everything that he does or says and we get into little fights. I can’t be present, focus on work. Writing all this, it makes me feel like a terrible person, and think it’s obvious that I’m not ready to handle this and that I shouldn’t be wasting my boyfriend’s time or building attachment to his son… But a part of me still has faith in us. We’re so compatible, such good chemistry, really supportive of one another, and we’re both willing to fight for one another. I want us to be forever, I want to feel good and ready about having a stepson–I really do think we an have a beautiful co-parenting family…. but this is getting so hard I’m wondering if my feelings are blinding me from reality. Of these are problems now, won’t they get worse? What about when we have children? Am I being fearful or honest with myself?
We’re thinking about moving in together, and his son is getting older and more attached, so I feel like I need to make a decision soon. Can anyone here shed some light on this situation, or provide some third party perspective?
Thank you so much.
September 21, 2017 at 4:20 pm #169735dreaming715ParticipantHello! My parents divorced when I was a baby and my step-mom has been in my life since I was 3-years-old (I’m now 28). Being a step-mom and co-parenting is no easy feat, and I think it’s completely normal to have mixed feelings. On one hand you love your boyfriend and appreciate the beautiful relationship he has with his son, but on the other hand maybe it feels like you’ve suddenly “skipped steps” in your life? All of a sudden there’s a child who has to be considered at all times (and his biological mother, as well).
Be kind to yourself- you’re not a terrible person for having these feelings. I can only speak for myself, but I would start to take note of what I’m feeling on a regular basis. What are the pros of dating someone with a child? What are the cons? What do you value? For example: Do you value intimate relationships, family, work, hobbies (traveling, playing sports, etc…)- and what order would you potentially place these in?
There is no right or wrong answer and I know it may seem overwhelming, but I think the ultimate goal is to find peace and contentment. Taking note of how you’re feeling over a period of time and on a consistent basis and being mindful of this may help you.
September 22, 2017 at 4:45 am #169777InkyParticipantHi Little Coconut,
You are very wise for not moving in with him. Keep heeding that instinct. Don’t move in with him. Keep your own place. Be a free agent. When opportunity calls, even from states away, heed the call.
You are not married to this man. You are not even engaged to this man. The mother does NOT dictate where YOU live. Don’t get sucked into his karmic vortex.
If you move in with him it would be very hard to leave and yet very hard to stay. And you don’t want to do that to a child.
Frankly, you shouldn’t even see the child unless you will be in his life forever. The father is trying to set it up so you feel guilt, so you move in, so you seamlessly move where the family moves, so you will help take care of the child.
You are very young. I suggest keeping the relationship light and casual. And perhaps date another young, free person.
Best,
Inky
- This reply was modified 7 years, 3 months ago by Inky.
September 22, 2017 at 7:34 am #169783AnonymousGuestDear Little Coconut:
The key sentence in your share, for me, is this: “I’m afraid of bringing stuff like this up without hurting my boyfriend’s feelings”-
I think the relationship is likely to deteriorate and end if you do not bring stuff like this up with him. And you did state: “I want us to be forever”-
Got to talk to him, if you want this relationship to improve. As unpleasant it feels to bring certain topics up, it is not only for your benefit that you do, but it is also for his benefit and his child’s. Bring up all topics (pace yourself, of course)- everything that bothers you.
Do so responsibly, not blaming him but taking responsibility for your feelings. You can’t help feeling what you feel, so there is no guilt in feeling. You are not a bad person for feeling this or that. When you share a feeling with him that is unpleasant for you to experience and to share with him, see how he responds. Depending on his response and what develops in the conversation, you might very well be very surprised how better you feel, and how clearer things become for you.
The questions you asked here, discuss those with him.
anita
September 22, 2017 at 7:45 am #169773ChrissyParticipantHello! I’m 27 and just recently got out of a 1 year relationship with a single father (33) with a 7 year old son. I was drawn to your story since I am still recovering from this break-up which happened about 2 weeks ago. I met him through a mutual friend when I was a flight attendant based in San Francisco. I felt an instant connection with him that I haven’t really felt with anyone before based on our similar family backgrounds, and he was also super honest with me from the get-go. His son was also super sweet and would always give me gifts (candy and glitter pens) and sing me songs. I eventually moved in with him and his family since he kept on telling me it made more sense to (save money and convenience since I was always over anyways).
However, as time progressed, I grew more and more uncomfortable with being a stepmom as well. I felt feelings of awkwardness whenever his ex came over to pick up his son to hang out. I also didn’t like it when he would communicate with her through texts. It was obviously a normal thing to do, but I just felt like I shouldn’t have to go through with that situation. I also thought I could handle it at first, but I also had feelings of jealousy and frustration. All of that anxiety caused me to randomly cry at least once or twice a week over how unhappy I was with the situation. I also didn’t know how to date someone with a kid without feeling selfish. I love children , but I wanted to have my own children and I knew I wasn’t cut out to take care of someone else’s. I felt like that is usually how a normal single female would feel like.
Because of my unhappiness, I quit my job and moved back home to LA to pursue my goal as an elementary school teacher. I feel so much happier now. I know it’s hard when feelings for him are so strong, but the situation isn’t ideal. Maybe he was super nice and an amazing Dad, but that doesn’t mean it would be an easy or the right relationship to be in. I think being in an uncomplicated relationship would suit me better because I prefer a drama free life. Furthermore, his son grew attached to me and eventually started texting me. It made me feel so guilty in breaking it off. Based on my experience, I would suggest listening to your intuition. If you aren’t 100% sure of the situation, you definitely shouldn’t pursue it.
I regret hurting them both. That was the hardest part of the break-up and if I could do it again I would have made a better decision.
September 22, 2017 at 6:55 pm #169923Little CoconutParticipantDreaming, Inky, Anita, Chrissy… Wow. Thank you so much for your wise and kind words. It’s very valuable to hear such a wide range of voices.
I value partnership, and freedom to a degree. I value creativity. If I’m being honest with myself, I’m afraid to not be with him. He was the first person to tell me that he would love me forever, that he would marry me… I know he would, too. Perhaps if he trusted me more.
He recently told me, “I feel like you wish I wasn’t a dad.” And I don’t wish that—I don’t know if I would love him if he were a father. Having a child changed him in a way that made me love him…So I don’t wish that. But other times, yes, I wish it were less complicated.
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