Hello, Jan and Anita,

I wanted to do a little follow-up…I had a hard time keeping the NC, especially because he contacted me a few times, congratulating me on my work during the pandemic, asking me how my new tasks were going, thanking me for a reference for his vacation…Every time, I answered and then rewrote, as if I was falling back into something addictive…And I even sent him a template for a project he’s doing. And the answers were short, cold and unreciprocated. It’s very painful. I have now convinced myself not to recontact, and if he does, I will ask him not to do it anymore.

Another thing that upset me is that I understood between the branches that he is seeing a new person. Of course, I’ve been digging into her to see how she is everything I’m not: more beautiful, younger, very fit, champion of her sport, having travelled a lot, accomplished in her work and rich, two beautiful children…It depresses me even more…I’m no match at all.

So that’s where I am…I wish I could have given you better news but it’s a process, I have to be aware of it. Thank you for being there for me.