I have to get this out. Does anyone else feel the same ?

No matter what group I’m a part of, what project I work on at work, what family event I’m at, I always get a ton of hateful comments from people. All. The. Time.

Eg.

I used to be a part of a circle of friends. It started of great, we used to enjoy hanging out together, making plans, going out. Over time, I became the butt of every joke they had. Everytime there was a conversation, they would either make fun of where I work, what I was wearing, how I talk or change some topic and turn it around on me. After a while I got tired of this and started retaliating back, at which point obviously they started moving away from me.

Now take this scenario and apply it to every friend circle I have been a part of (high school, college, office). Apply the same scenario to every other situation I’ve been a part of (work, family)

This obviously meant I was doing something wrong. So I decided to blend into the background in any conversation or interaction or event. I figured if I was quieter, then I couldn’t say anything stupid or do anything stupid to draw attention to myself. But still then they would still circle back jokes at me.

So then is it that its just really easy to hate me ? I dont get it.

Open to any ideas, ANY IDEAS, ANYTHING WILL DO. I just need some help to figure out what I’m missing or doing wrong. I’ve ended up socially isolated because of this.

Lets get the obvious out of the way – I dont smell, I dont even look ugly. I shower everyday (out of the fear of appearing untidy). I’m soft spoken and polite. Bragging is not my forte and will usually deflect any praise that comes along my way ( which i feel is a side effect of trying to not draw attention to myself )