Hello Anita, thank you for saying hello. Let’s see I’m always looking after others I work in a school with students who have emotional and behavioural issues. I’m naturally a carer and always have been it’s my greatest strength and my weakness. I attract people in me who need to talk positive and the negative.

my mum says if I had a ten pound note and it was my last I’d give it away if I felt someone needed it more then me. I do not see this as a problem most of the time. However it can be draining sometimes, which I do recognise. The bit about me is that sometimes I get lost and my roles as mum, teacher etc are there. I love being these things but sometimes I need to be just me as I am now – when I’m on my own without expectation.

i know my expectations are self imposed unless it’s work when I know generally what I need to do even here I do a lot of different roles within work. I have expectations of me and I’d say more realistic expectations of others.

Im seeing being here as me time, where I can connect with others. I use to visit a site years ago which was magic a place to talk and just be. It ceased to exist although I do keep in touch with some people who are now friends off line

I’ve always found it strange how things can be a blessing and a curse. I’ve had a number of bad experiences that I use a teaching point I guess. I often see the positive in the negative. Not always when in the midst of a storm

My expectations of others are at work I look for the best in people. I encourage to be the best they can be. As for me I’m hard on myself I know that this is a result of a highly protective family, who had high expectations. In essence there isn’t anything wrong it that but it means when you fail it’s seen as failure rather then an experience to learn from.

i do care a lot about what others think of me, and over the years have been working on how I see myself. As I say my life experience I use to teach others, as I use the negative experiences to bring a solution.

thank you for helping me reflect.

Remember where’s there’s tea theirs hope

Anita sorry it’s been a while. I am far easier on other people. I always look for the positive in other people, as the people I deal with on a day to day basis bring a lot of stuff with them. I look at the barriers to learning, life and hopefully support them in their journey to connect and learn. For some they leave us as more rounded individuals and with qualifications they need to.

As for me I have a good family, however my mum is very critical everything from my hair, weight and anything else she see as me doing wrong. Over the years I have believed her now I’m more rounded as a person and see what my gut tells me. However when I’m very tired my mums voice / critic is harder to silence.

My mum means we’ll just she hasn’t the filter of compassion at times. I on the other hand are a deeply sensitive soul who attracts people who need to talk. I’m a good active listener and to be honest I’ve always been involved in caring roles.

I do love being here though as I feel as though I can connect and that’s been a while.