Im 34 in july.
I had very exciting life, but very unstable. From 4 years im having quite settled life. Im in stable, quality relationship. I gone through 1 year therapy for adults sexualy abused as a children. I feel that i sort out anything i could…
But i feel empty and stuck in time. I have weird feeling that my life finished 4 years ago when i gave up adventures to get stabilization.
I have all list of plans goals and things i would like to do now and there is no other things which hold me… but i cant move. Sometimes i think that is because by granny is dying and im just waiting since a year for her to go away… she is the only one who matter for me in my family. But deep inside i know that i ve been stuck before my granny get first stroke.
I m reading lots, i think i have a good inside of all matters that i find difficult and how to fight it.
I m blind on my one eye. Other eye is in constant danger of getting worse. Ive been born like this and im trying to think that its not bothering me. But my obsession with loosing time may be connected with this.
I will be grateful off any opinions why i stuck and how to un stuck myself.
Kind regards.