My Xmas was ok, first without my dad. I still get confused telling myself out loud he’s dead…what the fuck?? Hope you get better! And happy new years, hope it’s a great year for you!!

Still bummed out it’s over between us. But in reality she’s too far away. Maybe it’s not over over? But I wanted to leave because it was turning into that whole other situation all over again, so I had to find an excuse even if it was a bad one to leave.

People at work all know what happened.my boss told me next year to come to china with him (he’s Chinese) and find a girl, I can still go to Taiwan later and see her if we still talk one day, so I said maybe I’ll travel and have girls all over the place and give me reason to stay traveling all the time while making money.

I just wanted to leave this girl so I can work on myself and start traveling not worrying about someone all the time, I’ll try talking to her again someday but I can’t right now. I got my life to live and places to see. I had to make up a lame reason to end things, instead of the truth that I liked her but she’s too far away and things aren’t working out right now.