I would also like to add that I had a very very hard time not taking life seriously. I am very young and have a hard time making friends or just hanging out with people because I feel like I cant connect with others. I worry about everything and I feel so uptight. It bothers me so much when my boyfriend smokes weed even though I know it is okay and I also do it sometimes. I have this irrational feeling of anger whenever I know he has or is going to do it with his friends. He doesnt have an issue with marijuana use and it does not play a role in his day to day life. I dont know where this anger is coming from or how to stop it. I try to not let it bother me but it always does. I don’t want to tell him to stop because I dont want to try to change him or be a control freak. I would rather learn to deal with why it is bothering me because I know it is not an issue with him but something within myself.

Yes, I have scheduled to see a therapist and also a grief specialist. My boyfriend and I haven’t had issues or fights until just recently when my brother passed. Still, nothing ever gets out of hand. We always talk through the fights and address if we do not appreciate how we are feeling. We both still would never raise our voices, name call, or get physical with each other. We both understand I am not acting like myself and I am having a hard time coping. We are both quite calm a majority of the time that is why me getting angry at things or getting frustrated so easily is so out of character that it is concerning and putting such a strain on our relationship.