Once upon a time a king went to lord Buddha and told him please lord Buddha “I want happiness”. then Lord Buddha told to king take the I away from your phrase it ego, and take WANT away from your phrase that is desire at the end you are end up with happiness,. As lord Buddha said my friend, some day we all are leaving this body this is just a temporary garage in this life circle, you have took care of them so long so be proud , you have been doing interested things walks and had pretty time memorize them,, leaving bodies are for every one not only for your loving dogs,, that is life, we lose our loved ones instead of grieving memorize the cherish moment you had with them.

I was 13 when I FINALLY got a dog for my birthday. His name was Hydro and I begged for a dog ever since I was a toddler, so he was more than special for me. Dogs are probably my favorite beings in the whole world. Hydro and I went everywhere together. When Hydro was 10, it was his time to pass. Honestly, I tried to prepare myself for the loss. But, I had no idea how I would react. He was everything to me. I became somewhat bitter. I didn’t understand why he couldn’t live longer. Two years has passed. And the biggest and most important lesson I have learned is acceptance. I don’t understand why dogs are only given to us for a short time. The other thing that helped me was hearing this:

Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together….

https://rainbowsbridge.com/poem.htm

hope this helps, good luck with your struggle. I hope you find the strength to grieve and heal.

My deepest and most sincerest apologies for your losses. I have a cat that is my best friend. for over 8 years he has always been there by my side giving unconditional love and asking for nothing in return. I think that’s why we love our four legged friends so much. they give and love us and expect nothing in return. we know full well we will outlive our loved friends and we go and get attached anyways knowing full well there will be a day we will say good bye. I love my cat and I know there will be one day in the future were he will pass on. I knew that the day I picked him up as a kitten and looked into his eyes. I tell myself I will be ready when that day comes but I know full well a piece of me will die with him.
but that’s the price we pay for unconditional love and to me its worth it.
I feel for your loss and my heart goes out to you..