November 23, 2020 at 9:02 am #369738SunnyParticipant
Hello and thank you for stopping by on my post. Just to give some background about myself, I am female, 32 years old, I am single, no kids or responsibilities. I have generally been a nervous, anxious person up to this point, i would say I have social anxiety, no friends, low self confidence and lack of belief in myself. I would also say that my most predominant emotions involve getting angry or having a temper. I only show this to my family at home and it is verbal nagging, arguing, complaining not anything physical. I feel as though I have much more negative vibes about me. I read so much articles, blogs, watch videos, try to meditate, research chakras, listened to mantras, EFT tapping . I have to knowledge but lack application and consistency to really make a difference in my life. I feel so much resistance inside sometimes and it lies dormant and then rises up at times.
<p style=”text-align: center;”>and since I was a teen, I have always felt like I didn’t know what I wanted to do as a career. I always thought that I would eventually figure it out. As a teen, I wanted to become a teacher and did the subjects required bit didn’t get accepted. I felt confused and basically my brain froze. I didn’t know what to do next as I never considered not getting in to do my teaching degree. My parents had to make the choice for me of the next best thing which was a business degree which I gained. My wish for teaching no longer exists. I eventually became an Administrative Assistant until my contract ended a few months ago so I am currently unemployed.</p>
I feel as though from the time being a young adult to now, I still have no dream, goal, interest, motivations toward anything, no passion or burning desire to achieve anything in particular. I don’t have any hobbies or interests. I don’t feel like I have any sense of direction or figuring things out. I feel as though I don’t know myself or what I even like or want personally like children, getting married, my own home. If I think of something like a normal desire everyone has for instance is owning a home, it feels like a fleeting desire for a couple minutes and it dies down. No real desire to command any action. Has anyone experienced this or can point me in the direction of understanding this?November 23, 2020 at 12:30 pm #369773anitaParticipant
You shared that you are a single 32 year old woman, no kids, “generally been a nervous, anxious person.. have social anxiety, no friends, low confidence and lack of belief in myself.. my most predominant emotions involve getting angry or having a temper.. verbal nagging, arguing, complaining”.
As a teen you wanted to become a teacher but failed to get accepted to a teaching program because your “brain froze”. Next, your parents chose for you and you ended up graduating with a business degree. You worked as an Administrative Assistant until your contract ended a few months ago, and you are currently unemployed.
“I feel as though from the time being a young adult to now, I still have no dream, goal, interest, motivations toward anything, no passion or burning desire to achieve anything in particular. I don’t have any hobbies or interests. I don’t feel like I have any sense of direction.. as though I don’t know myself.. No real desire to command any action. Has anyone experienced this or can anyone point me in the direction of understanding this?”-
– Yes, I experienced something similar for many, many years. You mentioned that your brain froze: “my brain froze”. Like you, my brain froze too, my dreams, goals, interests, motivations, passion, desires.. all these things froze in fear. As a matter of fact, there are three reactions to fear in animals: Flight (running away), Fight and Freeze, the three Fs.
What scared you as a child, what caused you to Freeze?