From the way you sound, your going to do what you want regardless of any advice you receive. Your emotions are high right now and they will betray your rational thinking mind multiple times. The best thing you can do is not beat yourself up about it.

I have a feeling you know that your ex-boyfriend does not respect you or your relationship. He also doesn’t seem to care about fixing things either. Any contact you have with him now will be very emotionally charged and you may not be able to communicate what you really want to say. If you feel like the relationship is worth saving and you can trust him again, then go for it. If not TRY to move on. It WILL take time (for me it took almost a year to fully get over my ex) but evaluate your feelings every month, and you will see that you have actually made progress in a positive direction.

And if you make the wrong choice, and get hurt again? There are no wrong choices! For me, I’ve learned more from my wrong choices than I have from the ones that were easy to make. Each “mistake” you make will only benefit you in the long run. So follow your heart (although it will lead you astray at times) and live with no regrets.

It maybe seem like the end of the world (try to avoid all songs on the radio), but it’s really not. If you are ready to move on, start working on your inner peace. Once your happy by yourself you will never be in this position again. You will realize your self worth, which will allow you to open yourself up to the right person that will ENHANCE your happiness not diminish it.

I wish you all the luck, and whenever your feeling really down, remember it’s just your stupid emotions/hormones trying to trick you, listen to your mind and your soul.