Hi Angie,

I don’t feel I necessarily have too much advice (or experience of truely doing what you want to do, and that we all need to do), but I just wanted to say I was really struck
by your post. I left the last post ‘where to be, regret and confusion,’ we are both 28, and from your first sentence, we sound very similar- I could have written your first sentence. ….But I would just like to say I really admire your determination and the work you have done and I would love to hear other peoples thoughts on your questions.

First of all, congratulations on your weight loss 🙂

I’m quite surprised to hear that you feel you have to ‘mend’ certain aspects of yourself. You are who you are – you don’t need ‘fixing’
If being loud is naturally a part of who you are, so what? And are you really being ‘annoying’ or are you just being you, having fun?

Obviously there is a time and place for everything but don’t try to hide away parts of your personality if it’s truly who you are, especially the passionate side!
Emotional Freedom Technique has been said to be effective and I find it often calms down my mind when it’s racing. You can find many videos on Youtube that will show you how to do it.

For most of my life I had doubted myself. I’ve been depressed for as long as I can remember. I grew up in a family who encourage self doubt as a result until I turned 20 I was still living with them with a constant voice in my head that says “don’t fool yourself you can’t do it”. I could not get a job because after I was denied once, I had quit, thinking it affirms what the voice in my head was saying. I wanted to get the best education possible, but just like my job search I had given up before progress can be seen.

Last year I decided to abandon all of that. I told myself if this is all life has to offer me then I might as well die trying to get out of it. So I moved out of my parents house, attended the best community college there is in United States(#1 City College Santa Barbara City College) and decided to start my journey from the very start. I have no money nor support from my parents I just tackled life head on.

It was the best decision I have ever made in my entire life. I had found so much more meaning in my life. I wake up every single day with overwhelming drive to achieve my goals. Fast forward to today one year later, I currently have a 4.0 GPA, starting my own blog site, and developed very strong relationships I had never had. I will soon have a job and be able to support myself independently. But most important of all, the voice in my head that says “I can’t do it”, have been replaced with “I can, and I will”.

I will be homeless over this summer because it’s summer vacation and there is no financial aid over the summer but to me it’s all okay. I know that this will only be temporary and I will get through it no matter what I have to go through. I know my dreams will eventually come true.

I mention this because this is the basis of the following advice I’m going to give you. To accept and love yourself you must make regular efforts every single day to make it so. It won’t happen over night, you have to build it over time. I have never been more scared in my life than moving out of my parents house, but as I said I was willing to die for the chance of achieving my goal. The same is true for accepting and loving yourself, you must fully commit to it and let go of all the fears that come from it. Instead face the challenges that come from it like depression or self-doubt.

I will not answer your three questions because I believe if you search within yourself, and really dig deep, you yourself knows the answer in the first place. Stay strong my friend, remember that you are great and wonderful just the way you are and capable of wonderful things in this life.

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Thanks Cristian,

Any words that are spoken from the heart are useful words wisdom