Thank you for the advise Anita. And yes, I will learn from your mistake and not get back to them. I actually decided that from a long time ago, because they being in my life will only create problems for me. Also, I found a few interdisciplinary courses which could accept me. Trying for them. Continuing my major would be very stressful as I don’t have any passion for it. The field itself demands high amout of research abilities and other professional qualities which I don’t possess. It will make me miserable just as my previous job. It would be like getting into another abusive relationship with my career. I can’t go through all that pain again, and if at all I fail to get a job, I would be forced back to my country and will face a lot of losses financially. And this time, I would not have my parents house to take shelter in. So I’m just trying to do the best I can.

Thank you so much Anita! Your advise and wisdom is very much valuable for me. It helps me to think positive and have a hope. Thank you for understanding me so deeply. I feel that there is atleast someone who can truly understand me and my feelings. I am always filled with gratitude whenever I see your posts. I would be glad to share more of my story, even if it is a small achievement which helps me grow more happier. Thankyou for all your support! 🙂