I have overwhelming feelings of guilt, shame, and fear. I had a crazy summer that was extremely emotionally draining due to all of the conflicts and events happening back to back to back. It was like multiple punches in the face and gut with one blow. I want to do something about this state im in. I am going to college in January, but in the mean time I want to really build myself up again. I feel crippled and on edge. I am very talented and have multiple passions and I feel overwhelmed by this now. One of my passions I can’t even enjoy now because I feel guilty enjoying it. I was told I couldn’t be seen as an artist and that I don’t put any emotion into any illustration I do. So I feel ashamed to work on my illustration. I feel constantly ashamed about everything I do, I am second guessing my actions all the time, and I just feel so paralyzed. I want to move forward but the tools I used to use to move forward I feel ashamed to use. I really want some advice on how to move on from this constant feeling. I just began my first serious relationship as well, so I want to become my better self so I can put forth my best efforts into this relationship.

So much has happened and I just want to break through the ricochet and really lead my own personal life. I want this change.