You wrote above that you are beginning to feel that you need to move on. But you don’t know how. I don’t know either. If you’d like to come up with thoughts and possibilities of what it would mean to Move On, please post those here and we can … examine these thoughts together…
I am sorry you feel so sad. Where else can you attempt to find the love that you need? Is it that guy or no one else? Maybe someone else… later, when you recover?