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February 24, 2019 at 8:56 am #281521
RahaParticipantHi every body . I am raha I am 30 years old and I am from Asia from one Islamic country.
I said that because maybe it help you for knowing my situation better. I have master degree but I don’t have professional work experience and just my resume and CV is about certificates and degrees no thing more.
About my relationships I got dovirced and then I had some relationships but …..none one them was the thing I liked or I wanted so I just left and after dovirced it was really so difficult for me .I am confused I am don’t know what to do my country situation it’s not good and can not be hopeful and think I will be have good future here .I don’t know I have depression or not but I know I am not in good mood and situation. And these days are really so hard days for me I feel blue and I cried so much .
I try to find job and jobs are about marketing ….and with very low salery and I can not accept it with master I do suck works any way situation here is not ideal I know but it makes me more sad
I was thinking about leaving here and go to other country but I am not sure can I do it or not one time I tried and I could not get Schengen visa …
And about student visa I know now it’s late for try for apply and I don’t know how I can support my self financially because I feel I am use less and I can not do any thing.
The other problem in my life is that when I met men even after first meeting they for making love and being together I don’t know why and I really feel so bad like make I am who..re .
I don’t know what I did with my life full of wrong decission and wrong relaitions and I feel I don’t warning any thing during all this years
Sorry my English is not good .
February 24, 2019 at 9:10 am #281531
AnonymousGuestDear Raha:
Is this your first thread here? I remember a woman with the same story not too long ago… was it you under a different account maybe?
anita
February 24, 2019 at 9:23 am #281533RahaParticipantDear Anita yes
February 24, 2019 at 9:33 am #281537RahaParticipantIf it’s not okey or I must not do it please tell me
February 24, 2019 at 9:53 am #281541AnonymousGuestDear Raha:
It is okay, only it would have helped me to read our previous communication, so to not repeat myself. If you want to refer me to that older thread, please do. If not, you can post next, if you want, what did you learn, if anything, from your older thread.
anita
February 24, 2019 at 10:14 am #281545RahaParticipantDear Anita I left ex bf and I lost my job as well and now I am even worse than before the first time when I shared here I fall down to first step again
In this time I am really thinking about leave here I am not three I have foots not roots but I really dongd understand how to do it I just see lot of advertisment for some companies and some imigration lawers for help but I don’t know shall I trust or not .
February 24, 2019 at 10:39 am #281555AnonymousGuestDear Raha:
I remember some of our communication. we talked about you getting legal information and help regarding immigrating to another country. You being stuck in life, as you are, not close to your family of origin, not in a relationship, not employed, no close friendships, that is where people are in all countries, including Europe, the U.S., Canada, Australia and the rest of the Western World. People are lost everywhere.
Because you are where you are and you don’t have a way to leave at this time, better look around you for a way, away out of being stuck. There has to be something, some opportunity, a way for you to live with dignity and hope for a better life.
Look for that opportunity, it may be hidden, but it must be there somewhere in front of you, or to your right or left. Keep looking.
anita
February 24, 2019 at 10:46 am #281559RahaParticipantDear Anita
I look at Evey where I see sadness sarrow I can not feel hope and happiness I don’t know what kind of mentality I have maybe I just look at the empty half of the glass maybe I am very negative but I am afraid even for start any thing no matter whats this or who is that I am so afraid for try again like I am fed up front try and error and be looser again .
I just see gloomy future I don’t know how adapt myself today I met one psychologist and she gave me medecine and she told me take them it will make you calm down but it’s not cure
February 24, 2019 at 12:24 pm #281573AnonymousGuestDear Raha:
“I just look at the empty half of the glass maybe I am very negative”-
-can you see anything positive today, anything at all, maybe the sun coming out of a cloud, or a big moon showing up in the dark sky, maybe a butterfly visiting a flower… look for the small things and tell me about them, will you?
* I will be away from the computer for about sixteen hours. I hope to read from you when I am back. Maybe other members will reply to you as well.
anita
February 25, 2019 at 12:00 am #281623RahaParticipantDear Anita I will try to see as like you explianed for me .
For knowing my situation better I must tell you I live in iran .
February 25, 2019 at 5:00 am #281631AnonymousGuestDear Raha:
I remember that you live in Iran, from your previous thread. I suppose the sun shines in Iran too, and the moon shows up in the night sky, and flowers are just as beautiful.
I was wondering, you wrote in the previous thread that you are distant from your family of origin, what happened between you and your parents/ siblings that brought about this physical and emotional distance?
anita
February 25, 2019 at 9:33 am #281667RahaParticipantDear Anita after I lost my job I back to my family again and ask them for supporting me because even my ex bf don’t wanted help me for find new job or barrow some money to me …and this request was the strat to way be under their control again and they want to know Evey thing about my life and even ask me go and live with them in same home …
Any way it was my only choice I come back stay with them take some money and trying for new job …of course I am not very welcoming for my family and because I hit dovirced and some people ask and talk about it they prefer I be far away .
February 25, 2019 at 9:44 am #281675AnonymousGuestDear Raha:
How was it for you as a child, living with your parents, growing up?
anita
February 25, 2019 at 12:12 pm #281769RahaParticipantYes I grow up with both my parents and my 2 brothers they are older than me and they are married.
I was alone all my child hood I did not have any close friend and just some times I play with some girls and in the end with fight for dolls or some thing else ….they left me or they called me spoiled useless …and even in school I was good student but I make some problems said some lies about my classmates or my teachers and ask my parents come there and talk and defend me or change my class or change my school some thing like this .
February 25, 2019 at 12:14 pm #281775AnonymousGuestDear Raha:
I will read and reply to your recent post (and to anything you may add to it) either in a few hours from now or in sixteen hours from now.
anita
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