James’s last post was on May 13, 2017, five years and 4 months ago. I don’t know if after all this time he is still following the forums, but if he does, I hope that he will respond to you. I would like to read from him again.
You can read his other two threads of 2016 and 2017 by clicking his screen names and going to “topics started”. You are welcome to share about what you’ve “been feeling for years” here, or on a new thread. If you do, I for one, will be glad to reply to you.