I had an argument with my two best friends because i felt like they were treating me unfairly. I bottle up a lot of my feelings which i know is wrong but they kept doing small stuff that was adding up. So i eventually just exploded. One best friend kept asking me for a favour which was to lend her my ID to access my university  which she knew i wasnt comfortable with and after i accepted to do that favour after a week or so i still wasnt comfortable so i said no, she started saying stuff like you should support me and then i told her that she was unappreciative and selfish for saying this. I did not speak to her for a while and i know i should not have said those things to her but i felt really upset that she was not trying to understand my situation. My other best friend knew about this and said she wont get involved which made me feel really bad because i would not say something like that to her if sje had an issue with my best friend and i would try to help them be friends. This friend gets really moody at my friend over the littlest things and sometimes i do feel like i have to walk on eggshells so she doesnt get annoyed. I would also advise them to not do something that may harm them and instead they get annoyed at me and try to justify what theyre doing and it really hurts because i feel a lot of what people go through and if theyre stressed i will feel stressed too so it rly does drain my energy. I wrote a pragraph to them a week ago about how when im with them, they do not listen to my issues and i feel like i cant speak to them because ot feels like they’re not there. I spoke about how i get bad vibes from them and how they do not appreicate me and make me feel very bad. I basically wrote about everything i felt that day because i was really upset. They both got really annoyed at me when they replied and said stuff  like how theyre not going to chase me. Which is not what i expect but i expect them to ne more understanding. I deleted them off snapchat because i needed space. Few days ago i really wanted to patch things up because i do not like holding onto grudges because it feels really horrible for me however one friend just constantly kept criticising me saying how i reacted over such a small thing and made things worse. She said she will not move on until i say sorry and i did say sorry for bottling things up but after the conversation i could not stop crying because it made me feel really horrible. I did not feel any relief and i know i said sorry to make peace with thigs. Also i have another best friend  who i told this problem too and one of them said j should not have told her but she went and told her other friend about the problem. To me it seemed a bit hypocritical because i was told that im not allowed to tell my friend but she can go ahead and tell her friend because ‘i started it’ everyone else in my life who ive spoken to say that they are not good friends because i try a lot from my end.