I give up on women for now. After over 3 years of being single, and finally feeling ready to date someone, no one seems ready for me. I don’t get it. I dated two women. Both chose to end it. The first one, it didn’t matter as much, but I still have the second woman on my mind. This is frustrating because it’s a waste of time thinking about her and I don’t know why I can’t remove her from my mind.

Online dating is a pain in the a**. I had good success the first time I went on there. It feels I’m a social pariah now. I send messages and women either view my profile, and don’t response or absolutely nothing. Why do they go on there? Maybe it’s because they get a lot of attention, and after some guys put the effort in and say something about them, they feel better about themselves. I don’t know. All I know is that I have never sent a stupid sexual or insulting message to anyone.
To give you an example of being blown off. I saw that the mother of one of my son’s friends was on there. I knew her as part of a couple years ago, and I have talked to her recently. I sent her a message just saying hi and asked how she was doing. Nothing back at all.

I’m to the point where I’m just going to say to heck with it all for now. I felt good when I dated those other women. I was feeling pretty good before that, but actually sharing your life with a woman again, felt good in another sense. I’m trying to not become bitter towards all of this but it’s getting difficult. All the excitement of trying has worn off for me and it is not how I want to be. It’s tough being positive when you feel like you are getting a kick in the butt, in every part of your life.