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    Arianna
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    So here’s the deal. I go to college away from home, and in the beginning of this semester I met this guy who I thought (and to an extent still think) was really great. We met through one of my friends, and he immediately pursued me. He took me on a valentine’s day date, which was our first date, he took me to a concert, on bike rides, we spent a considerable amount of time together. But here’s the catch, I’ve had plans to study abroad for almost the entire summer, and then when I come back I’m going to be doing an internship, and living in a different city that’s about 2 hours away from where our college is located. He never asked for sex, he never really expected much out of me in that sense, I feel like he genuinely liked me. But now that the semester is ending, he had a talk with me, and said he doesn’t want to be official mainly because I’m going away, but also because he doesn’t want a relationship right now in general (Mind you, we were seeing each other for 3 months.) I honestly wasn’t surprised with what he said, but it kind of hurt me because in a way, I felt like we were in an official relationship. He treated me like we were in one at least, and to just give up like that because I’m going away just made me feel really upset and insecure. I cried so much when we had our talk, but I didn’t really get mad. Part of me isn’t THAT devastated because I know long-distance relationships can be very challenging, and he’s done it in the past and it didn’t work out, but it’s just the fact that he isn’t even willing to try. He recently sent me a text basically asking me how i was doing and that he’s always there if I need to talk or anything. I had no idea to respond, and I responded two days later saying that I’m okay and that I just can’t see him for a while because I have a lot on my mind, but I wrote that he will hear from me at some point this summer. I just don’t know how to feel about all this. Does he genuinely like me? Was I played? Are we done for good? Should I cut off all contact with him? These questions keep racing through my mind and it’s finals week and it’s so frustrating to deal with 🙁 I just need some peace of mind and a greater understanding of the situation from an outsider. I’ve spoken to a lot of my friends, and I keep getting mixed answers, some of them are even telling me I should hate him. Should I close the door on him for good?

    #76609
    Anonymous
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    Dear purplepinguin:

    From your description, he sounds like a decent guy and you sound like a decent person as well. Two decent young people, so it “sounds” to me. It seems reasonable for me that he would want to protect himself and not get into a long term relationship and it seems reasonable to me that he didn’t know exactly how HE felt throughout those three months himself, so he didn’t give you the most clear messages (he didn’t know himself what he wanted, how he wanted it as clearly as he knows now). Seems like he cares about you and is not able to commit to a relationship long distance. If this rings true to you, please do not hate him, like your friend suggested. There is enough hate in the world without hating a decent person. It may be possible (is it?) that your hurt has to do more with abandonment in your past, betrayals in your past, maybe in your family-of-origin? It may be an oppotunity to look into such old hurts that are still very much alive in you (and are somewhat projected into this relationship)? If any of this stimulates you to think more- please post again.. Best to you:
    anita

    #76655
    Arianna
    Participant

    Anita,
    Your advice makes a lot of sense, but the one thing I’m wondering is if I should just cut him off. I made it clear in my text message that I don’t want to see him for a while. I may contact him at some point when I return from my trip, but I’m scared my feelings for him will still be too strong and I’ll get too upset. I just hate cutting people off though. Any thoughts?
    Thanks again for your help!

    #76656
    Arianna
    Participant

    And also, I have been hurt in the past by a lot of friends, I’m a really kind, generous person who rarely gets mad so I was stepped on a lot, especially when I was younger. I’ve always felt underappreciated.

    #76665
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Hi Purplepinguin:
    My thoughts regarding your note to me: anything you do in regard to this man is okay as long as you do not abuse him, as long as you treat him with respect. It is your top responsibility to take care of yourself. If it hurts you to be in contact with him- end the contact… respectfully. Do it honestly- not having to tell him everything you think and feel, but what you do say should be true. Maybe you can tell him that you are confused at the moment- without having to go into detail. But the point is- do what you need to do to take care of yourself. Be your own best advocate.
    Take Care of You:
    anita

    #76798
    Will
    Participant

    Just chiming in to agree, really. I see no reason for you to hate him, but if it would do your sense of mental peace good not to talk to him at all and let it be done, then that’s fine. Say it’s done. Tell him, thanks for the good times and goodbye.

    I think circumstances just got in the way for you guys. It’s sad but it happens, especially when you’re young.

    Hope you can find a way to let it go. All my best wishes.

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