Hello, i met Guy A at school, he’s soo handsome. I was a freshman, he was a senior. He approached me first, he would always speak to me all the time and i would get chills in my body whenever he comes to speak to me. He told me I was attractive and we became friends. One day he asked if i had a boyfriend, i told him I did, but my boyfriend is acting funny lately, so he didn’t pursue me afterwards and we continued to be friends. My boyfriend and I broke up later on, and I was now single, and I wanted to go out with the guy, i never told him i was single, but I was a intimidated, i’m used to guys coming to me and asking me out first. I didn’t want him to think I was trying to hit on him so I just kept silent. I would always tell my friends how handsome and cute he his. I just couldn’t mustard the courage to tell him i liked him. I was thinking to myself, “he probably has a girlfriend, he wouldn’t be interested in me” I talked myself out of it and ended it settling for another guy who became my boyfriend that same year, but I still wanted to Guy A’s attention on me. So Guy A graduated, i saw one of my friends giving him a hug, i pushed her off, and gave him a hug, i was bit jealous, i still had feelings for him but at the same time I still had a boyfriend. Later on he contacted me on social media saying He had a crush on me since we both met and wanted to date me but he didn’t tell me because i had a boyfriend, which is understandable. I told him how much i liked him to, and when he graduated, i was sad and regretting. I was wondering if he had got married, left town, had a baby, I wondered if he forgot about me. I was still in a relationship when he reached out to me. He was telling me he was leaving the city, but secretly i wanted him to stay. Later on, me and my boyfriend break up. Again, i didn’t tell Guy A, because i want him to come to me. I saw Guy A post a photo of a beautiful girl he took a picture with, she wasn’t his girlfriend and me being jealous and insecure. I sent the girl a friend request to see what she has that i didn’t have. Guy A’s brother approached me and asked me out. We messed around and we ended up having sex. Guy A finds out about it and confronts me and asked why did I tell him i liked him and then go out with my brother. I made up excuses, i told him “your brother approached me more than you, he asked me out more and I figured you lost interest in me and i thought you had a girlfriend. I told him i cannot go out with you and it would be wrong.” Little did i know, he didn’t have a girlfriend, but i was afraid to ask him. I felt bad, i didn’t know how to feel about this. So a few months later i ran into him at a hotel, we talked about what happend and he told me he still have feelings for me, I told him “to not give up hope on me too fast. You never know what will happen in the future” He asked for my number and i gave it to him. He still insisted to go out with me and I told him i’ll think about it. In reality i was giving him false hope. I ended up being in a relationship with someone else. I was leading on Guy A, i couldn’t tell him i was in a relationship, he was being needy and obsessive over me, he didn’t have much going for himself. i was lying to him, he would text me, i wouldn’t respond, he would call, i wouldn’t answer, he left me voicemails and a message on facebook, I wouldn’t reply, I never heard from him again. I saw Guy A’s Twitter account and I followed him, but he never said anything. later on I followed his other twitter account, he didn’t say anything.

I haven’t seen or spoke to Guy A in 7 years. From what i heard, Guy A is financially well off and is doing well for himself. He’s became more of a mystery and his confidence level has changed. Sometimes i wish Guy A would speak to me. I’m wondering if i had settled, would things be different if i was with Guy A? Did he forget me? Its like i don’t want anyone else to have him. so many questions i’m asking myself now. I’m not sure how to deal with this. Any advice would be great. Thanks