In September, I got out of an emotionall abusive relationship. My ex continued talking to me until mid December when I told him I couldn’t handle it anymore. That break up was very difficult for me, it gave me so much anxiety and stress but was able to be okay with the help of my family and friends. In January, I felt okay emotional and spirtiually to maybe started casually dating. I joined a dating app to test the waters and hung out with someone and I did not like it so I decided to delete the app but by this time, I was already texting a guy and we went on an amazing date. He was super sweet, smart, funny, and I really enjoyed our conversations and his company. We were intimate pretty quickly and I usually dont do that but I didnt regret it. After our second date, I brought up the conversation about what we both wanted and he said he got out of a relationship a few months ago and I told him I did as well and so we agreed on nothing serious but I did mention I’m not into hook ups and he said he isn’t either. We continued talking every day, hanging out weekly, and he would share things with me about his life and I’d do the same. I honestly felt like he liked me. We even hung out on Valentine’s Day. I asked him if he was being intimate with others and he said he wasn’t and that day, I invited him to hang with my friends at a mini party thing and he didnt get back to me until night so he didnt come and I think I might have scared him off with that. Last week, we were not talking as much which was okay because I don’t need constant communication but I felt like something was off so I double texted a few times which made me feel anxious and clingy even though my friends said double texting isnt a big deal. I asked him if he was free and he said he should be and he’d let me know. Friday he told me he was still at work but said we could do this weekend instead so we agreed Saturday but I never heard from him all day. I double texted him asking if we were still on and he said nothing…it was 9 pm and nothing so I decied to tell him that what he did wasnt okay and it was unfair to me and that im understading but i just felt disrespected and let him know that i know we agreed on nothing serious but i developed feelings without meaning to and that i couldnt stick around if he never wanted to move past casual at some point/if he wanted to see other people. He didnt respond until almost 2 am saying sorry and explained why and how he felt really bad and admitted he messed up. (it was reasonable for sure but I feel like if he cared about me in any way, he would have reached out). He told me he isnt in the place to have anything more serious so I told him I understood and I appreciated his apology a lot and genuinely hoped his day was good and I haven’t heard from him since..i know my response to his text didnt elicit a reply but I’m still sad. I’m overthinking my actions but after being in an abusive relationship, I wanted to use my voice and say how I feel (something i NEVER did with my ex). I figured it would be the best action to take for myself. I feel like I came off “crazy” even though my text wasn’t emotional, it was very logical and calm. I’m hoping he will reach out to me at some point because I really enjoyed having him in my life. I’m just feeling so guilty for saying something.