So I am well aware I have scars from a narcissistic past relationship and I find myself doubting and questioning others actions and words quite often. I am working on that very much which leads me to my concerns. I’m in my early 30’s and just recently through my child’s camp I ran into this guy I had a crush on in middle school. We recognized each other and chatted for a bit and I thought nothing of it. Few weeks later we find ourselves at the park and we continue conversing. At the end of the night his son is going to dinner with his mom (Guys ex-girlfriend) and the kids insist we all go to which I agreed (we both have boys only a year apart who are good friends). So awkwardly enough I find myself at dinner with my middle school crush his ex-mother in law, his ex her brother his wife and kids and her new boyfriend. Well surprisingly enough we had a great time and we all laughed and enjoyed dinner. Two weeks later I receive a phone call from my crush asking me if I would like to come over so the kids can jump in the pool and we could hang out, the night was fun and he told me how much he enjoys spending time with me and how he loves the way I am and how much he loves my personality and attitude but that he wants to take things slow which I am ok with. Following day he picks my son and me up to hang out for the day and he seemed rather distant and disconnected. Fast forward following weekend we had an outing with the kids, his father and nephew and had another great time where he tells me again how he feels about me but that we have to take it slow. Mind you the extent of our communication is when we see each other and hang out which is the weekends we don’t text and barely speak on the phone. Well this past weekend we had a random getaway with the kids to the beach were we spent the night and once again was a perfect time, two days of complete bliss yet the drive home was rather quiet with that feeling of disconnect and distance. I’m just not sure, he speaks about the future with me and makes plans yet there are moments I don’t feel it. Maybe it’s just me. I want this to work I truly haven’t felt the happiness I feel when I’m with him.