Hey again everyone, this is an issue that always seems to crop up when I’m in a vulnerable state of mind.

So, I don’t know if I’ve said this before, but one of my core principles is being considerate. That’s why I’ve always been addicted to approval, and feel like something’s wrong with me when someone says I do “too much” or “not enough” of something, and one thing people have always said is “Myles, you shouldn’t care so much about what others think.”

And I’m terrified of this seeping into my work (I recently began writing songs, and I would only get angry with myself when I was writing about something I hadn’t been through or didn’t happen to me, or when I would try to cram whatever completely honest thoughts I was writing down into some imaginary melody I’d conjured the f*** up in my head.) Now, keep in mind I haven’t told anyone I’ve begun writing songs because I’m not entirely proud of them yet (I think i’m at the point where I can say I like my writing) and I’m afraid of getting an overwhelmingly negative response to a song that I know I’ve put my blood, sweat and tears into, or being told to do something I thought I was already doing.

Also keep in mind this being swamped by opinions tends to happen when I’m having a bad day, I didn’t meet my own expectations etc. Most of the time, I try my best to create and act with intention and not expectation (although I do try to plan things) and people seem to be attracted to me because of this, but I’ve learned that being present is about being here and not overthinking anything, positive or negative (Did I get that right?) and it’s often hard for me to ground myself because of this. I’m guessing what I’m asking is how do you ground yourself so that you can follow your intuition and be true to yourself without being inconsiderate?

Enough of my ranting. This song is called Telekinetic (We’re Not.)

You say you know what I’m feeling

And I say I know what you’re thinkin’

But ain’t nobody said nothin’

Are you OK? Do you need some me time?

Are you hungry? Or do you want some “we” time?

These are the questions we won’t ask

So how are we supposed to last?

These are the questions I don’t have the answer to

But right now, let’s talk ’bout me and you

I’ll tell you what’s really been going on

You tell me what you think I’m doing wrong

And even if we disagree, at least you said it

But let’s be real, cause we’re not telekenetic (we’re not)

Telekinetic (we’re not) Telekinetic (we’re not)

Telekinetic (we’re not) Telekenetic (I’m not)

Telekinetic (you’re not) Telekinetic (So don’t0

Telekinetic (I won’t)

I know I been acting kinda strange lately

But I just need you to be straight with me

You don’t have to love everything that I do

Just take me for me (And I’ll take you for you)

I just appreciate your honesty

We just talking, we don’t need no hostility

When we have a problem, let’s work it out

Compromise and empathy, that’s what love’s about

Chorus

All I wanna do

Is get right with you

But I can’t do that unless I tell the honest truth

That means I own my dirt

And that means you do too

And it’s okay because we’re both human

But despite all that, we celebrate our union

Chorus

I can imagine someone from the neo-soul crowd singing this (That also makes me cringe when reading my writing – when I imagine everyone but me singing what I’ve written, or simply someone else), I feel like it’s a really earthy song.

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• This topic was modified 7 years, 3 months ago by Myles.