No, I am not interested in dating sites. I’ve only signed up a few times in the past and mainly looking for friends. Dating or anything romantic in general makes me nervous. This is what I told her as well, I like to make friends first and I am not gonna seek for a relationship, I’m gonna let it happen on its own.It isnt want I am into, as I said before I want friendships first if a romance happens between that friend and I then I’ll consider it. However, she is the only one I am fully interested in. I need to see her, I need to see it for myself if my feelings will change if our chemistry is different in person. I can’t let go of what she told me, her words “We could have a relationship in the future” runs in my mind constantly. This is why I said I am having a difficult time letting my feelings go for her. If she hadn’t given me that hope then I would be not interested in her romantically and moved on a long time ago. It is already to late, she said what she said we build a strong bond from a distance and i am saving money to go see her.

Yes, I’d told her that I must let go of that “hope” she given me because I can not focus on myself. My mind is to set on her and the hope that I never had the time to actually explore myself. Who I am, what I want in life and to love myself first. She encourages me to do this, she knows I need to stay focus on my life cause she knows I will give her the whole world if I am so focused on a potential relationship in the future for her. The distance is a major issue here, and it’ll be another whole year that i have to wait to go see her. I dont want to limit myself fully on her when there is a whole life ahead of me.

I am secretly holding on to that hope. All she knows is that I am moving on and living my life while we still have a good friendship from afar. I had to tell her about this cause we are so close and stay in touch that I couldn’t focus on myself. She was the one to put “relationship” on the table, while I already friend zone her after I expressed my feelings to her. I know how I am when I care for someone, I reject myself to give that person happiness over mine.

She wants to be part of my life, she said this to me last year. I didnt understand how some young woman wanted me in her life when we never met in person but she and I build this friendship together and we don’t want to lose one another.

If she finds love I must be happy for her if I find love then I know she be happy for me as well. But I know deep down that I must see her, I am working very hard putting in more hours to save money to visit her and other countries in the UK. I already plan to visit the UK before I met her now I really want to focus on my euro trip cause I made a best friend who i love dearly there.

My current friend was my listener (therapist) on a free therapy site. I told her everything about my heart ache of how my ex best friend treated me before I broke the friendship off. My current best friend was not suppose to talk to me offsite, it was against the rules of the site cause we were anonymous. But she wanted to see my art and then she add me on Facebook. And she kept putting in more of the effort in this long distance friendship than i ever did. She got so close before i even broke it off with my ex best friend.

This is why i have this attachment to my current best friend.

She basically rushed into this friendship and I basically became emotionally attached to her. We both did.

Women make me nervous, in a romantic sense. I have more friends that are women than men. I would love to have a relationship, I will be open for a sexual relationship with someone if they are interested in me back. Its just they have to go slow with me.

if she lived closer i still will feel the same as in taking our time to be friends first and slowly ease into romance if we both felt we wanted more.