Hi everyone,

So right now i have finished my university abroad and go back to my hometown and now are on the path of learning my family business. Honestly in my mind, i’m so desperate to find a crush… i can’t seem to find one as right now as the business that they run won’t lead me into meeting people younger than me… and also doesn’t seem to meet any much new people. Therefore, i keep pushing myself to have a crush because if i don’t i never seem to have purpose in life (with having someone to like i can have a purpose, this is the type of person i am no matter what i do)… i push myself into chasing a girl i know in which she is my junior in highschool and now she’s studying in japan (i have written about this on my previous thread)… i keep thinking that chasing her is hard that she studies there and even learn the japanese language, of course she’d wanna work there and right now im in my hometown… i feel i can’t waste time only to text her in which i can already predict what she’ll do later… as most people who came from this city to abroad, has the intention of working there. Most of my CLOSEST friends are all abroad, and therefore i can’t seem to find anyone new here. My type of girls are usually the good behaviour ones, mostly not talkative but she’s honest and innocent type (like the girl’s who enjoys more being at home)….  There isn’t many activity to do in my hometown besides like working out… i also don’t prefer to like someone that i dont usually meet and know very well. I need to feel safe about her, then i’ll approach but i just can’t seem to find one.

I know this sounds like me pressuring myself, but i just seem to can’t stop thinking of this… even though i still able to do my activities without problem. Most people would also say to start focusing yourself first before liking others… and yes i’ve done it and i know it’s and endless process…. but i just want this issue to be solve for me……