2 years ago i was in a 2 year long abusive relationship with a narcassistic partner, he was a compulsive liar, cheater, and would put his hands on me constantly but all these things happened after almost a year of being with him…it was like waking up one day and not knowing who i was with but i was too scared to leave.

I formed Stockholm syndrome and ptsd being with him and still have nightmares even after being 2 years out of the relationship.

A year ago i met a wonderful man who is currently significant other, unfortunately in the year span we have dated i have broken up with him several times out of fear of things getting bad or him cheating or hurting me even though hes never done anything questionable. He knows my history and has been very understanding on why i do this but i know i hurt him everytime i dump him but i cant help it i get so scared sometimes i think im not ready..but sometimes i just dont wanna give my ex that power to keep me scared.

I still have yet to talk to a therapist about my abusive relationship, my doctor just gave me meds for the nightmares…but when im with my bf and things are going good i have nightmares of him cheating on me or my ex coming back to my house to atrack me amd freak out. I adore this man so much and hes the ONLY person I’ve been able to develop feelings for after my relationship but my anxiety is crippling my ability to commit to him. Please help. Please.

I don’t wanna be scared anymore:(