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    anita
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    Dear Alessa:

    Thank you for such a heartfelt message—it truly means a lot. ❤️ I really appreciate your thoughtfulness and the care woven through everything you shared.

    I admire how you’ve found ways to adapt to dyspraxia—cycling sounds like a beautiful solution that brings both freedom and simplicity. It’s such a clear example of creating space for yourself in the world, on your own terms.

    And yes, I’m lucky to have someone kind helping me with online things. I’ll take your suggestion about clothing sites to heart and see what we can come up with.

    What you said about my childhood struck a chord. It’s painful when others turn away—or worse, endorse harm by pretending it never happened. Your empathy in naming that really touched me.

    You’re also spot on about this space—we all arrive here carrying tenderness, defenses, and hopes. And that makes connection both fragile and precious. I’m so grateful we reconnected. What we have now feels honest, mutual, and earned—and that matters deeply to me. ❤️

    Thank you for seeing me so clearly. I’m truly glad we’re still here—still showing up for each other.

    With warmth, Anita

    #447226
    anita
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    Journaling because I can, because I have this space here, in my own thread-

    I say “because I can” as an act of defiance, an act of rebellion, simply because I lived without such space for too long.

    Better say, I suffocated without space-for-me, for too long.

    It’s amazing how a person can suffocate for so long and yet, still live to tell about it.

    I have been taking my space here, in my many threads, and in real-life, DANCING outdoors to live music. And I’ve been taking my space in forming friendships and friendly acquaintances.

    It makes my life Worth Living (see the title of this thread?)

    Listening to music.. “it’s just a shot away, ah yea..” Rolling Stones.

    It’s very important to me to not CHASE anyone for friendship or attention.

    Give people the space they need.

    Light outside, music too loud, can’t hear the birds I assume are there, outside my open windows.

    .. “Angie.. With no Loving in our Souls..”

    – There IS loving in my soul!

    I am a good person after all, who could have known. Not me-

    I thought that I was a bad person because my mother told me so, her clearly spelled out message: YOU ANITA – BAD.

    It was a false message. I FINALLY KNOW it- what a relief, so many decades after that devastating, false message took hold.

    .. What has hurt me so badly in my life has been REJECTION, active rejection and passive rejection= ignoring me, not answering me, not responding to my words/ my sentiment. Nothing. As if I didn’t exist (no space for me).

    Well, I exist.

    More about the rejection I experienced and how MUCH it hurt:

    Well, it hurt, and no rationalizing it can dim the hurt.

    it’s an emotional thing, this hurt.. no words.

    “Here I am on the road again.. There I go turn the page… There I .. GO.” (Music, if you don’t recognize these words).

    The 20-year-old who murdered two firefighters in Idaho today and injured a third, he wanted to be a firefighter.. was he reacting to rejection?

    I don’t know, his motivation wasn’t determined yet. I don’t excused the violence and death, of course, but we can all make it a better world by responding to- not ignoring- people who so desperately need a .. response.

    You see a child hurting, an adult who’s still hurting? Say something, say: I see you, see you hurting, tell me more..?

    Say something, don’t let people drown in unresponsive, suffocating pools of nothingness.

    Help people to not feel as terribly alone as I- and so many others- have felt for too long.

    Anita

    #447227
    anita
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    Completely dark now.

    “Yeah.. I’ll keep you by my side… If I am alive and well, will you be there holding my hand?” (music piercing through the darkness)

    it’s all about connecting, isn’t it- about being responded to, not being left alone.. as simple as that?

    Is it all about: SEE me, HEAR me, let me know I am NOT ALONE, not all by myself.

    Be there for me, be HERE for me.. (and I’ll be here for you).

    Anita

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