This is toxic for you to harbor these feelings and could eventually impact your own health and well being. You know why she behaved in the manner that she did, so no mystery there. If you do not need to interact with her on a regular bases, then don’t. How can a sick person acknowledge what they do not see? What form of justice are you looking for? If you could have justice today, would that change what has already happened in the past? You need to heal yourself at this point. You are on the right track being a part of this web page, which appears to have many tools that can help you get to a better place within yourself. We all have had our crosses to bear in life and I can assure you that there are people out there with far worse stories than yours that have risen above their past. Write or journal what you are angry about, poor I all out. Then have yourself a little ceremony and say that from this moment on this is in the past and is no longer a part of my present or future, then burn it (safely please). Write down each day what made your happy, what you are thankful for and give thanks to your higher power. I always wrote letters to what I called the Karmic Board (God, Jesus, Budda etc.) telling them what I was thankful for and what they could help me with. Odd as this is going to sound, over the years I got that help that I asked for. My temperament could still stand improvement, but gone is my deep seated resentment of my childhood that I never really got to have. Please stay strong and work on this. You don’t want to fall down the rabbit hole.

MissJane

wilson, I feel for you and can relate. My mother is abusive as well. I read this article the other day that you may find meaningful. There is an exercise within to write a letter of forgiveness. This doesn’t make the things your mother does and says “ok”, but it may help you to find some peace.

Still Mad at Your Parents? How to Forgive and Move on, Once and for All.

My best to you.