I was dating this guy for 1.5 years. We have been through a lot of ups and downs. He went through a lot to be together with me. Initially his mother do not approve of us, but his mother came to like me.

We have broke up for approximately 6 months now. But throughout this 6 months, it has been a constant on-and-off kind of relationship.  We talked and hooked up for period of time before having no contact and the cycle repeats like a loop. Recently, he seems to be more serious in our relationship, expressing interest in wanting to be my bf again. But whenever, we have an argument he would pull away. This time, he pulled away while we were in the middle of a fight. Whenever we are not talking, he would live his life as per usual. There would be no initiation. Only when he sees me going out with other guys (through social media), he would bother reaching out to me. But, he would be angry. Calling me at least 10 times, scolding me over texts, challenging the guy i went out with, for a fight. He would say that he love me or that he cares about me.

His actions confuse me and i have no idea what it means. I know it is high time i move on already, but i do not know how. He is the first one i truly love and he has a very special spot in my heart.