Dear Hareesh:

Glad you are feeling better. As to your question: “Do you think I got what it takes to fulfill my dreams?” My answer is: depending on the dream. If your dream is to be loved by another person, to be employed…then yes, it is possible. If your dream is to be a president of a big corporation or the winner of a big lottery or to be a movie star, well the chances are anywhere from non existent to very small, I am guessing.

What are your dreams?

anita

Dear Hareesh:

Your dreams do not seem small to me. They don’t need to big as in Fame and Fortune for me to appreciate your dreams as very valuable.

Looks to me like doable dreams. Why don’t you list them in order of priority, from most important to not-as-important and start working on the first, second maybe, right away? Like a business manager of your own life with goals, strategies (how-to) for each goal and .. go to work, patiently though, not all at once.

anita

You are welcome, Hareesh, anytime!
anita

Dear Hareesh:

Your friends most likely don’t have as great a life as you think they do. Often people who experience misery and self-dislike imagine other people are living those perfect lives, but it only appears that way from the eyes of the depressed and down-on-himself person’s view.

Please have some empathy for yourself. You are suffering and you need kindness, and not referring to yourself as “just a waste.”

You are not a waste, you are a valuable person who is suffering. If only you went through the process of healing, of getting on-your-own-side in life, being your own best friend, you will realize that indeed you are valuable, worthy, as important as anyone else out there.

anita

Dear Hareesh:

You were born that way, valuable, just like any person is born valuable. That value does not disappear or go away.

A person may believe he is a penguin (in a psychotic episode or in a dream) but that doesn’t make the person a penguin. He is still a person who believes he is a penguin.

In a similar way, you, Hareesh, are still as valuable as when you were born; you are a valuable person who believes you are not valuable.

anita

Dear Hareesh:

I am not equipped or trained to deal with a person who considers suicide. I am not a mental health professional and no one on this forum is here as a professional or as a person trained in such serious topic.

Please call a suicide hotline or a hospital, check yourself into a clinic or a hospital as soon as possible if you consider such an act. There may be links under “Free Resources” on the Home Page of this website.

anita

* Dear Mark: Thank you so much for your post above, it is very meaningful to me. I am grateful for you following this thread and sharing.

Turning away from suffering, I didn’t know in the past that it could somehow be a matter of choice, but it is becoming a matter of choice for me.

Dear Hareesh:

Only two posts ago you asked: how I am a valuable person.

Mark answered your question in his post above. His answer is: ” You and Anita have saved me.”

Hareesh, you started this thread, it was your initiative. You didn’t know that Mark was following it, did you?

You are a valuable person, Hareesh. Please take it in and let it sink in, deep inside you.

anita

And I hope your life is getting better, Hareesh. Make it better today. Any small way that makes your life better is not small at all. Hope is not in the big things but in the “small” things.
anita