I didnt know where else to categorize this so here goes… Recently I took a trip to Milwaukee. I went for a anime convention. I had gone the previous year and I had a lot of fun, it was one of the best trips I have taken in my short lifetime (I’m 22). I met a girl who was 17 at the time over there and although I only saw her for a day I felt an instant connection. We shared similar interests and she had my type of humor and was really funny. I sincerely felt like we were so similar. After I met her I was “Dang, why do all the down to earth chicks live in other states..” I told myself i would totally date her but I lived in the west coast and my life was there as well. I added her on fb and we kept in touch here and there and all that jazz. I went again and this time I hung out with her all 3 days, Again these feelings rose and came back. On the last day she invited me to her room and we talked and had a good time. I was really contemplating on making a move and having sex but then I thought “what for? like youre going to leave and become attached to someone who is far away”. So because I valued her friendship and I actually considered having her as a longtime friend I decided not to. Even though I was flirting and play fighting I stopped myself. And i thought it was sound decision until i came back and started obsessing about her and how great of a person she really was. I didnt take that chance but nothing would have happened. I dunno. I just really wish I could find a girl like her here somewhere. i have no clue why Im acting like this but this girl is perfect. I even said I would move there. Mind you I have known her for over a year but we dont talk much… So thats why i have no idea why im obsessing over her… I wanna give it time, But even then im like why didnt I make a move even though nothing would have resulted from it. I know,,, this seems like a kindergarden issue and its something that seems really insignificant but lately when something is uncertain to me i feel a pain in my chest (Ive learned to control it but sometimes it runs on its own). It seems very childish, i cant believe I even wrote this but It relaxes me pouring my thoughts. Anyways thank you, any input is appreciated!