Hi Anita!! Thank you for checking in. I’m doing pretty well, but still struggling with dating a bit. I don’t think I grew up feeling alone or unable to laugh, but I did sometimes feel like I was walking on eggshells with my mom (not wanting to hurt her feelings). Interestingly as I’ve been working on healing my insecurities I see her in a completely different light and we are so much closer now. There’s definitely something with how my parents’ relationship is that affects my relationships now. My parents are very co-dependent and that is how I always thought relationships are supposed to be. I know better now, but I find myself consistently repulsed by guys who are fully available and want commitment and stability. And I am most attracted to the addictive, chasing dynamic. I have gotten so much better about not acting on all of these things but I’m still skeptical I can find someone who is a good balance that keeps me interested but is also solid and available.