Hello, I am writing this post hoping to reach out to others who have been in my situation, and really just to share my feelings. I had an abortion a couple of months ago and am feeling intense regret and sadness. I feel like I made the wrong decision and am now battling with behaviour patterns that are self – destructive. I love my partner so much but lately I have been taking out all my anger and frustration on him, and often I feel like I just want to run away from the situation and leave him but I know deep down that this would hurt him, and I don’t want to hurt him. This is also the first relationship I have had that feels wonderful and he means so much to me, my regret is making me yearn to be pregnant again but I know that this probably wouldn’t heal anything. I know that there is nothing I can do, the decision has been made and I need to let go now, I suppose I just don’t know how. My feelings are so intense and they feel out of my control. I know I need to take control because I don’t want my partner to suffer any more,  he needs me and I need him, but when I feel like this I just seem to push him away and get completely sucked into my feelings. Maybe it will just take time. I am just reaching out because I feel the worst I have ever felt.