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October 13, 2015 at 10:38 pm #85389Share a life storyParticipant
Hello everyone,
Yesterday was my birthday,I have had 57 other birth days but this one was special.
Two years a go I had a bad cold, sore throat, neck glands swollen and not feeling well.
So off to the clinic,my wife scolding for not dressing warmer and taking better care of myself.
That afternoon my life changed forever…..instantly.Our lives changed forever…..instantly.
The three most feared words “you have cancer” I didn’t believe my doctors,I can’t….asking to re check
the tests. It can’t,I am a soldier, perfect health,never smoked, never used drugs,eat only healthy.
It was a big mistake…had to be right.It wasn’t.The non medical term was neck,throat and tongue cancer.
Several months of radiation and chemo cocktails.My weight 220 lb, down to 130 lbs.Hearing loss,taste
buds destroyed,dry mouth,vocal cords swollen loss of voice.My perfect smile gone with my teeth.
And to top it off 2nd degree radiation burns on my neck.For once in my life I was afraid,afraid for my
beautiful wife.This damn cancer is trying to kill me.Then I got mad….really mad.Just damn mad.
I started to take back my body and mind.I willed myself…..to not let this thing kill me.
I refused to use the C word.I would not empower it.I would not be afraid any longer.
Its been two years since and now C free.Slowly my body is coming back…just slimmer and super white dentures.
The C thing did give me something,Clarity.My life,our life is different.Now we live for the moments,I know sounds
cliche but it’s true. I love,respect and appreciate my wife even more,if that’s possible.Everything is better now.
Our life is better now.But the biggest thing I’ve learn’t is that this wonderful universe is truly indifferent.
Only you can make the difference in your life.Yesterday I tasted my birthday cake and heard then sing,Happy birthday.
This C thing can be beaten….everyday people are winning,don’t be afraid because you are not alone.
Finally I have to thank all the wonderful people at BC C clinic.They are truly dedicated group of people.
Thank you for letting me share.October 13, 2015 at 10:44 pm #85390jockParticipantthank you ronin for sharing your story. So much wisdom, so much pain, yet so much “clarity” as you say. may the rest of your life be filled with happiness and joy…..
October 14, 2015 at 5:21 am #85393ChrisParticipantWow!!!! Happy Birthday. That’s just awesome 🙂
October 14, 2015 at 5:36 am #85394InkyParticipantDear ronin,
What a beautiful story!!
I am so glad they caught the cancer in time and that you had the strength and will to beat it!
Sadly, my cousin is now being pulled off life support because of host graph disease. But what a life lesson ~ the whole family is in Boston now, all together, appreciating every minute of life and that it IS precious, that it all DOES end one way or another ~ that his soul just chose to leave a few decades sooner than usual. That family, friends, love is all that really matters. And he was a marathon runner and a doctor so we assumed he of all people would beat this with knowledge and strength. He was fine last week and now … I can just come up with our spirit/soul does make these decisions ultimately from its divine timing. Sorry for going off tangent!!!
Keep fighting as your soul chose to stay here!!!
Here’s to dozens and dozens of more birthdays!! 😀
Inky
October 14, 2015 at 8:39 am #85401AnonymousGuestDear ronin:
What an intense post to read. At first I was filled with fear. I still am. The moment when everything changed for you. We are all vulnerable and death is guaranteed. You won your fight- congratulations, happy birthday and thank you for this exceptional share!
anita
October 14, 2015 at 3:30 pm #85422SaiishaParticipantHappy Birthday Ronin – what a story, and what a celebration of life! Thank you for sharing it 🙂
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