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January 29, 2014 at 3:10 am #49925NoraParticipant
So here I am. I am in the middle of a cross road. Which way should I go? I have finally seen the light, and I know that I can no longer be what society wants me to be. I have been pushed and brain washed into a career I never wanted. I am 23. There is so much more to learn and explore. I can feel the fire in my blood. I need to break free before it’s too late. I need to live my life the way I want it not the way others want. If I make mistakes , then I am the only one to be held responsible. I want my life back; I want to rediscover my passions and the true essence of life.
The other night I had a nightmare. I was in a horror scene , where I knew that I and everyone else on this planet will die, because of inevitable evil caused by someone, who I know. Of course that someone that I know is not capable of doing this in real life. So my focus is not on him, but on the emotions I was experiencing. I was scared , but I was starting to accept the fact that these would be my last hours on the planet. I saw my loved one, who seemed completely unaware of it all. But I did everything I can to save the lives we have. Why? Because I didn’t want to die. Because I wanted to live.
Right now, coming back to the reality, where there is no real threat of global catastrophe or evilness that can destroy the planet Earth, I think back to my life. The life that I so desperately wanted to save in my dream. I am living a life that is making me unhappy. Yet I am thirsty to live and experience. So I finally open my eyes from a long sleep and awaken my true desires.
I desire to be free! I desire to have the freedom to choose which direction my life takes. Whether it’s right or wrong, I can only find out by taking a step towards the unknown.
I am ready now, more than ever, to finally take the lead and take control of my own life.
It feels so liberating to finally admit this to myself.I will tell everyone, who cares and loves me, and I will hope that they will support my decision.
One good thing about this life is- freedom to choose!
I will always have a family, that wants the best for me. But sometimes the best way to discover my own identity and true purpose in life is to take a leap away from what everyone else believes is the right thing to do.
I will be brave, I will be honest , I will be just myself. And my inner self will scream out – time to start fresh and live life . Take each day with its good and bad moments but always have the freedom to choose.
I am ready to make this dramatic change. I am excited and truly happy to embark on this new journey.
I am a traveler. I like change. Change allows you to open your eyes and see that the world is much bigger that initially thought.
I know that I have potential and only time will give me the opportunity to fully discover and reveal this potential.
And it’s time. It’s time to take time off and reflect. Time to be just me. It’s time to get back all those hours of mindless work and commuting from one train or bus to another and spend them just for myself!
February 3, 2014 at 3:31 am #50192LenneParticipantGood for you, Nora. I’m 22 and I understand your frustration about feeling pushed in a direction that society deems necessary – even vital – in order to live properly. Lately I’ve been thinking that we live in a society that places little value on the importance of taking time out to find one’s self. It’s sounds such a cliche, nonsensical concept, yet it’s completely true. We are funnelled and shuffled down time-worn social paths and applauded for doing the same; the stability of what is known and what is proper is considered to be more important than the lessons to be learned from throwing those restraints to the wind. I suppose people are scared of the unknown and of ending up in bad situations because they were “impulsive” or “too idealistic”.
I think, Nora, you have learned something that many people realise too late in life, that you do not have to be pinned down by these societal restraints, and for this I applaud you. I can only hope to gain something of your courage one day and just *live* my life for me, as me. It’s fantastic that you’ve even got yourself a career at this age – even if it’s not what you ultimately wanted – and I think it shows just what kind of person you are: brave and unafraid to seek the life you want. Even the best and brightest of us can only take so much.
You ask about crossroads? How about you turn your back on those four mysterious roads and aim *up*: reach for the stars and soar. I know you’ll go far (and I apologise for the terribly lame metaphor, but I really wanted to write it! :D)
February 12, 2014 at 9:31 am #50861MarkParticipantGreat Nora! Let us know what you decide and where you are going next.
Metta,
MarkFebruary 14, 2014 at 5:17 am #50990Devi ClarkParticipantWell done, Nora. I look forward to hearing where you go on your journey or self-discovery.
February 19, 2014 at 2:00 pm #51364NoekParticipantThis was a very motivational and inspiring topic. I’m 18, and as Nora i feel the same. I want to be free, liberate the mind of emotionally unstable feelings. Tired of feeling depressed and having anxiety take over. I quit my job to day i had no love for, I felt free. I felt like i took the chains off and moving forward. I just want change in my life, Be different, Show my true self. I don’t like feeling humiliated anymore, I just want to get out and Do it. I’m generally at the age where “Adults” ask what college I’m attending, or what career i want to do. I honestly don’t want a career, I want to be myself and enjoy nature. Wish they’d stop asking me these questions and ask their Inner-self the same, See what the results are. I just want to bring Truth to people, Help them liberate themselves and others around and live in happiness.
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