Dear All;

what derived me to write here is the sever suffering I am being live in. I feel pain into deep of my heart in every breath I inhale and exhale, I feel the hardship wherever my eyes look to, simply I am living a tragedy 24 hours a day.

in fact, I am a border-line person, my iq drops only at 70, God only gave my smartness enough to know I am not smart.

I noticed this since I was 17 years. I spent hard time when I was in the school, then in university, where it was clearly I am the WORST!.

what intensified the hardship, is that i spent my time in the church, approximatly everyday, to beg for god to make me smarter, hearing about a lot of stories of some students and indivuals who born stupid, but changed when they went older. ubt all my attempts and pray to god, failed misrably.

I hardly passed the high school, and hardly found a job, but this did not close the doors of torture. in fact, it open other doors which make the torture more and more painful.

I realiezed I am not fit to this job or any job. I cannot go to advanced positions or involve in difficult task, i can not get credits to get pormotions or any. just nothing i can gain. i have been delt ujustfully approximattly every day from other employees.

now i am 41, but my achievments do not exceeds acheivments of a guy of 18 years old. I still do not have a girlfried, not have a car, not have an a property for my own. just nothing!!

I cannot escape from my job to another job, simply because I am not acceptable to any other job, I cannot open my own business because a BL cannot manage a business, even I cannot involve in a study because I am not smart enough to study.

i used to use advices and self-improvments tactics, but they do not work with me, i think that due one reason, these tacttics do not work for Border-Line!!

i will be gratfull for anyone give me suggestions or ideas…