I’m doing a little better with this. But it is still eating at me for portions of every day. I’m going on week 3 of this feeling now.
I still have the feeling/thought of “how did the last year or years of my life pass by so quickly” and “why plan anything when it is going to pass by so quickly and be lost forever”. This makes me sort of feel like nothing actually matters.
It doesn’t help that it seems like every weekend is someone’s birthday and I end up thinking back to how we celebrated last year and how it feels like it wasn’t long ago at all. That just leads me to the feeling that before I know it I will be an old man looking back on everything… Any suggestions for these particular thoughts? Has anyone overcome thinking like this? I have been meditating at night and doing breathing exercises during the day along with reading various books on the topic in my free time.
I sometimes try and trick my mind into thinking everything will be o.k. because medicine/science will find a way to make me live forever, or at least significantly longer. It actually works to some extent. But the feeling always comes back.
The fear of death is normal, and it can be troubling to realize our mortality. There will be peace, keep at it. There will be concentration, joy, keep at it. You will not become immortal, but you can have pervasive peacefulness despite your mortality.