Hi Mark, your right. I love myself but not as much as I should. i grew up around domestic violence and my mom having mental illness I have ended up as a caregiver-mentally so for the past year or so after my moms recent mental breakdown I have been focusing on myself. I have learned that ahe has the proper tools to take care of herself. I need to realize that with thia friend and not be afraid to let her go being that I cant rely on her anyway. She can ALWAYS rely on me but I hesitate to ask her for anything and thats not friendship. Recently we were out and there was a man walking on the side of the highway, extrmely drunk about to get hit. i was scared. i told her to give me her phone so i could call 911 since my phone was dead and she said ” no, I dont want to pay for a 911 call!” i was so disgusted. luckily we passed a police officer and I was able to flag him down. that is just the VERY tip of the iceberg with her selfishness. I am a compassionate person, I like helping people wether its just being there to listen, educating them or encouraging them. She seems to only care about herself. I held on to our friendship for too long as a crutch during times of depression but I am tired of being used and abused. She is never really here for me anyways so I need to let go of false hope. Each year I strive to be a better me and this year I need to create boundaries and let go of people holding me back so that i can be a better me. Thanks Matt!! 🙂

thank you! Sorry I called you Mark! thanks again, i DO need to learn to let go. i guess watching my mom go through a cycle of abuse and then me not be able to let her go its hard for me to let people go sometimes. i feel sorry for them. which means I care more for them than myself. But it has to end bc now I feel used and abused!!