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  • #49332
    lea
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    thank you! Sorry I called you Mark! thanks again, i DO need to learn to let go. i guess watching my mom go through a cycle of abuse and then me not be able to let her go its hard for me to let people go sometimes. i feel sorry for them. which means I care more for them than myself. But it has to end bc now I feel used and abused!!

    #49323
    lea
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    Memm…. I think it depends on the severity of anxiety. When it feels like on a daily basis your mind is “cycling” you cannot sit and be at peace and your always stressing about things that havent even come up yet, the term is called anxiety. Its just a term. It is different from just worrying because with anxiety it is considered more of ‘irrational worrying’ because you stress yourself about the unknowns and the what-if instead of living in the moment. As for as labels, they can be a good thing. Everything in the world has a ‘label’ or a name. For example, if your moody or hyper one day it doesnt make you “bipolar”. But there are people with sever symptoms who would require a different diagnosis other than just being “moody” along with proper treatment so that they can function properly. Thats what the study of the mind is all about and where these terms come from. And you actually suggested a lot of the same things that I suggested which is great. Some people just need more help as far as calming the mind, especially if they have been through traumatic situations. That being said I do respect your opinion 🙂

    • This reply was modified 10 years, 3 months ago by lea.
    #49319
    lea
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    Hi Mark, your right. I love myself but not as much as I should. i grew up around domestic violence and my mom having mental illness I have ended up as a caregiver-mentally so for the past year or so after my moms recent mental breakdown I have been focusing on myself. I have learned that ahe has the proper tools to take care of herself. I need to realize that with thia friend and not be afraid to let her go being that I cant rely on her anyway. She can ALWAYS rely on me but I hesitate to ask her for anything and thats not friendship. Recently we were out and there was a man walking on the side of the highway, extrmely drunk about to get hit. i was scared. i told her to give me her phone so i could call 911 since my phone was dead and she said ” no, I dont want to pay for a 911 call!” i was so disgusted. luckily we passed a police officer and I was able to flag him down. that is just the VERY tip of the iceberg with her selfishness. I am a compassionate person, I like helping people wether its just being there to listen, educating them or encouraging them. She seems to only care about herself. I held on to our friendship for too long as a crutch during times of depression but I am tired of being used and abused. She is never really here for me anyways so I need to let go of false hope. Each year I strive to be a better me and this year I need to create boundaries and let go of people holding me back so that i can be a better me. Thanks Matt!! 🙂

    #49294
    lea
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    Hi Jessie, I emotional eat because I deal with PTSD which triggers anxiety. I have what is called Binge Eating Disorder. You may want to look into it. And seeing a therapist may help. They can help you find better coping skills, so instead of turning to food in times of stress you can go for a walk, do a craft, talk on the phone with a friend, play some music and dance, watch a movie, take a bubble bath (one of my personal favorites), you can do anything to take your mind off of the stress as long as it is HEALTHY and POSITIVE. I hope this helps… I know how you feel .. xoxo

    #49292
    lea
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    Hi Dan, you may have GAD, general anxiety disorder. I have it. It’s like I can never be satisfied with a situation. I always have to think of all possible scenarios and outcomes of a situation which also makes it hard for me to make important decisions in life. It makes me second guess myself. I know that I am this way because I grew around domestic violence, emotional abuse and my mom was/is emotional abusive towards me and very critical. It has made it so that I do not feel comfortable making my own decisions in life, or if there is a major problem ( or a small problem that may seem major) I tend to look at all of the possible ways that I could of caused the issues which then causes stress. I will take the blame before blaming someone or if I feel that someone else is in the wrong I always seek validation to make sure that I am right. And then people start to second guess me because they think, if I am so conflicted then maybe I did do something wrong! I think it is about building self confidence and mindfulness so that you will not fill your mind with useless clutter. Like a recycling bin instead of stress because it keeps getting used and reused in your mind. You should speak to a therapist. And yoga is good at help you focus at one thing at a time! As well as exercise.

    #45678
    lea
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    Hi Garrett, You are right. I think that she is depressed because of her breakup. She has a hard time talking about things so it leaves me to fill in the blanks as to what is going on with her. I know everyone deals with things differently but as my friend, I need her to at least tell if she needs time to herself. She does not have to explain anything but being that I am going through a lot and I deal with depression and anxiety, I think I deserve at least that, so that I do not blame myself or blame her for us not speaking. Especially since she ignored most of my texts for a week but responded to one or two. That makes me feel disrespected. I understand if her thinking is “I do not feel like dealing with anyone right now.” But it seems that she has enough energy to tell me that she needs time to herself.

    On top of that, yesterday I found out that one of my close friend’s mom lost her battle to lung cancer. This is something that would be nice to discuss with my friend. But I guess she will not find out about this until she feels like talking to me. I just feel like, I have been there for her even when I had my own stresses, and she should realize how she should be here for me. If she feels that her plate is too full right now, i deserve to at least be told so.

    • This reply was modified 10 years, 5 months ago by lea.
    #45528
    lea
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    @ the nocturnal panic attack, I started having those in college as well. It’s called sleep paralysis. I hate when it happens. I think I actually had a mini one this morning when trying to wake up. I had to go on anxiety medicine from stress and it truly helps a lot. I tried a few different ones and Klonopin helped the best. I know how scary sleep paralysis can be but it doesnt actually physically hurt you. You should visit your doctor or therapist though to learn some stress coping skills ( I am currently in group therapy). Chris Ellis are situations are similar as well! Please look at my latest post and give me some adivice 🙂 I would appreciate it. Garret I think you should give yourself space from your friend and not blame yourself for thier issues. If they were healthier the would at least give you a respectful response to your concerns. Just know that you tried to be a good friend and that you are not to blame for your friends unhappiness or inability to communicate. i know that sometimes we feel as though in some relationships we give, give give, and the other person just takes, takes, takes. I’ve learned that those are called unbalanced relationships and we do not deserve to be in them. Its hard like Chris Ellis said because it doesnt mean they are not good people but it means that they are not recipricating the kind of love and respect that you need. Which is especially hard if you spend so much energy trying to make them happy or solve their issues. Just use that energy to take care of yourself. If your friend cares they will reach out to you. If not then you should just let them go. You need someone in your life who is an asset NOT a liability.

    #45526
    lea
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    Wow Garret, its crazy because your post seems so close to what I am going through right now! You should read the post that I just put up and we should help each other out!! Look at my latest post and you will see!

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