John – you look exactly like my ex. He would treat me badly, we had plans to move in together, until I couldn’t do it anymore. I loved him so much, put so much effort into the relationship, and he treated me the same way (even though he insisted we had to move in together anyway). But it was not enough for me. Yes I wanted to wake up next to him every morning, but I wanted to be treated the way i deserved. Then i broke up…he tried to convince me to go back with him…but 20 days later he gave up. And i was in a hospital, sick, and changing up my mind (he knew that, that i wanted him back as well) but he turned his back to me. And then I fought for him for 3 months, and he just treated me really badly. I’ve found out lies and everything. I’m still upset but…the way you described things, it was just like he treated me. I also developed anxiety disorders because of him… I don’t know why I’m saying all this since my situation just kept getting worse, and I felt guilty, but then realized I deserve better… But I also learnt a lot by letting him go and then regretting. And your lessons are very valuable.
She has learnt a lot as well, you can be sure of that. Just wanted to show a little bit of the other side…sometimes that makes us feel better, I don’t know. Let me know if you would like to talk some more.

Hello again John,

If you have changed, which appears you have and she’s not willing to accept you, communicate with you and or willing to give you the opportunity to see you as a changed man. Then she isn’t worth pursuing anymore, ONLY because she is still stuck on the past and hurt from the past. Feeling hurt is okay but after awhile, the healthy thing to do is to make peace with the past, forgive each other for both of your mistakes and move on happily. I’m not entirely sure what is going on with her since I don’t know her, so I’m just assuming here. If she still deeply loves you back, she will figure out a way to contact you by phone or come to your home to speak with you/reconcile with you in person. She will also give you an opportunity to see her again, to see if you have indeed changed in her mind. Wanting to have a family together is beautiful, any woman would be pleased to hear her partner ask that question, whether she wants a family or not – it’s still a beautiful question to ask someone you love. You can approach her once again too by contacting her in person and see what happens from there.

I wish you nothing but the best and I believe you have a good chance at reconciling with her, since you’ve had time to work on yourself and change for the better.

Wishing you nothing but love, positivity and light… 🙂

M.

Ok I see, now that you clarified. Since she is undoubtedly seeing someone new, then it’s time that you move on with your life. Especially since she doesn’t really speak to you or acknowledge any of the efforts you have made to speak to her.

Life will present you a new person to love, sooner or later that is your match and best suited. The positive thing you have gained from this, is that you worked on becoming a better man and a better person by improving. Love will find you again when the time is right. 🙂

Namaste-

M.

John, I also ask myself the same questions :/ all the time. If it was love, if I’m ever finding someone again, that will want to spend the life with me. Let’s keep hoping for the good 🙂