Hi Rhett,
Here is my advice for what its worth. I hope you find something in it that is helpful.
Recently I had some major life changes occur and there were times when I thought I was completely spinning. Everything I had created was falling apart. I had to make changes and they were going to be tremendously scary. Here are some things I found that helped me cope.
1) I changed my environment and the people around me. They were not bad people but their presence was causing me confusion. Once I got into my own place and could relax and think straight, I was able to make good decisions. I would recommend taking a break from school if it is causing you so much unhappiness. go somewhere safe and after a few days of settling out, look at the problem again. It may not be as bad or a new solution may appear.
2) Go through your life and see if there is someone in it that is making you feel less or stupid or is manipulating you. These types of people can weak havoc on your self esteem. They can be hidden but how do you feel when you are around certain people? Do you feel like you need to walk on eggshells with anyone? That is a good indicator that they might not be good for your mental health.
3) Sit down and write all of the good things about you.
4) Sit down and write up each and every skill you have no matter how goofy. You will very likely find that you can get a good job with the skills you already have. College learning in my opinion, is a one size fits all proposition and it doesn’t work for everyone. Obviously you are able to learn, so how about learning things on your own doing your own research and going after what you are interested in? Just realize that if a particular school doesn’t work for you it doesn’t mean that you are not smart. Some of the smartest people I know did not finish college (including yours truly!)
This can be a tough time and I went through it too. I remember sitting in front of the school building wondering what happens to people like me who can’t make school work. I felt useless and like I had missed the boat that everyone else had somehow. miraculously caught. I didn’t realize that I just didn’t fit that mold. Its scary but go make your own mold, then go break it and make another one!
Life is big and there are so many skills and services needed from honest workers. There IS a place for you (and probably several places).
As a side note, I can see by your post that you write very well. Your paragraphs are comprehensible and your spelling and punctuation is good. right there you have a very valuable skill. How many more are there that you may not see just yet?
Good Luck! You will make it! I promise!
XO Chris