Hello everyone,

I’m going through a very difficult phase. I was friends with a guy Brian on Faceboook for almost 2 years. He’s with my best friend Steph. We barely messaged a hi hello. 3 months back we grew close. He was after me trying to win me over. A gentleman in a way. I liked him as a good friend. We msg everyday day night after work. It grew into good friendship. His side was intense I started to feel the way he cared too much always talking about marriage, I was of his type simple and sweet,mature but with some childishness. Indirectly, he was indicating his feelings. Forehead kisses etc, it means a lot more and the “my lioness and saying sorry she isn’t mine” thing I’m leo by horoscope. He wanted to see me in person but I was relunctant for I dint know him, I was scared. We decided to Skype. He urged to meet up. The day came.

I met him 2 days before VALENTINES DAY after work. He was really too happy. We went for coffee. I was too shy I couldnot meet his eyes. He could not take his eyes off me. He was totally into it. He said many things to me. That now we are close. He really likes me. He showed me his parents pics. Then topic of my ex cropped up. To be mentioned I was in a relationship 7 months back since 4 years. I went through deception and we broke up. He knew it well. But I’m not a virgin anymore. While talking I said I did many things for my ex. He was like you mean you slept with him? I said yess. He went pale. I’d to shake him up if he was ok? He said yes.

He said that he’s concerned with my present and future not past. But we were friends right? A friend does not talk like this. First meeting we barely know each other. Then we had coffee. still he glanced at me with those lover looks. Then after that he said he bought something for me. I was like what? He removed a box of chocolates he told me previously its his favourite. I was feeling odd. First meeting gift? Then we moved to the duty free shop he said hes going to buy another for his mum for Valentines day she loves it. After that we took the bus. it was so hot that day I was sweating. I got a phone call busy talking, he removed his handkerchief and wiped my forehead. Omg! Asking if I’m ok and safe I said yes, with weird feeling. After sometime he lightly covered my hand with his. I felt it so intense I myself could not understand the situation. His hands were kind of trembling. He kept on talking I grinned laughed at times still feeling weird and shy. Each time I removed my hand he held it till the last moment I got down he dint want me to go.

Once I got back home I told him what he did holding hands and things. He said that I was smiling etc. YES but I felt weird first time I went through all this. He apologized. On my side I could not figure out my feelings it was so fast. But one thing I was sure he loved me. This screwed up my mind. If I did the right thing to just go and tell him bla bla you did this and that without thinking if I’m hurting him. All night I stayed awake. I wanted to apologise I urged him to meet me. We met but I couldn’t said it to him. This worried me I was scared of losing him. He said we are good friends hes sorry for whatever happened and forget it. I could not take it. For 5 days this was killing me.I asked him if he loves me, instead of replying me he asked if I loved him, I dint answer. he said to forget it all we are good friends he doesnot have feelings. Again and again I asked him. He denied.

We were messaging like almost strangers. On his side no more jokes, laugh no more smileys or emoticons. It was over. Last time I messaged him its been 12 days. no reply. Neither a hi nor how are you? Nothing even hes online right now. Am invisible as if. The fact is that nw really he made me fall for him. I’m in love and now hes not here. Now when I realized my feelings he left me. WHY? Did I hurt him? Or I’m no more a virgin he could not bear that?

Please help me friends. Thank you a lot.