Hey kl292

It normal when you are a teenager not to appreciate your parents, its a part of your life where you are breaking away from childhood into adulthood and in a normal families parents (and siblings) are there as the safe place to push against as you learn how to understand yourself and relationships, you then if you are both fairly balanced people come back into a renegotiated relationship (with a few throw backs to child/parent every now and then!!). They are also human so aren’t going to have all the answers or necessarily handle it in the best way (just as no one handles everything in the mythical perfect way in life)

How is your relationship with them now?

The incident may also just have become your brains code for something, (maybe that you are letting emotion get in the way, or that you are doing something you may feel guilty about or even that you are feeling guilty about something you shouldn’t – only you will be able to work out what) in your current life, a warning that something in your life is not quite right.

Alternatively it just a thing your super critic uses to beat you up about when its feeling threatened, like when you are getting out of it influence. Again only you will be able to work out if this is true but you’ll find yourself having thoughts about this when you are taking steps forward to improve your mental strength and the super critic is fighting back for control. If this is the case I find what works best for me is to recognize what it is doing and say something like “sneaky! I see what you are doing, clever super critic but i’m on to you. I know you think you know how to protect me best but I’ve got this so let go and relax mister!”

Anyway just me two cents – you were acting from a nice place and, as you recognize, it really was not a big thing (not sure, if i’ve understood the story, that it was actually a thing at all except in your mind)

If that is the main thing you have to beat yourself up about then you were a very good kid!