Hi Tiffany,
Your life is like watching a long, dark documentary and then suddenly changing the channel to watch happy, colorful television for young children. It’s off-putting because this NEW reality is such a contrast it’s hard to know which Universe is/was Real, if they exist at all!
I think you’re pissed off at the friend bettering herself because it’s all “GAAH! You’re in a perfect Universe and you think you’re too good for it!!” I get that feeling. “I’ve been through hell and am a hot mess, and here you are polishing diamonds.”
OK, I just read an article which I’ll link if I can find it again. She says, “You deserve therapy. You deserve to be loved, wanted and respected.” You repeat the last part to yourself several times a day while seeking therapy. You’ve been through hell. You are NOT crazy. You DESERVE some friggin’ therapy!!
Blessings,
Inky
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