Thanks for taking time to respond Anita. 🙂

It’s difficult to point to any sort of starting point. If I had to pick a time I first noticed it would be around four years ago. There was a game that I was quite fond that I happened to also be very good at. However, as I got better, the expectations I put on myself got higher, until eventually the game became too stressful and I stopped playing altogether.

That’s not the start though, that’s just the first time I can remember thinking about as a distinct thing, and I’ve done a lot of work over the past couple years on understanding myself (some of that work was even successful). Going farther back I’d have to point at college, which I flunked out of. But thinking back to that time I’m not sure if my difficulties at the time were cause of my current issues or merely a symptom of something deeper that I was not emotionally aware enough to recognize at the time.