not to mention i think i hold back on physical relationships b/c my parents argue a lot over financial matters such as home repairs, internet, electricity and everything money related seems to be a complaint. they make the financial world seem so negative that it irritates me. i had another dream last night in which the buddha said to me “You don’t see the glass half-empty, but you see it half-full. You keep an optimistic outlook, but you also look at reality. You let things that are bad go and when you are angry, you like to be alone to let that anger out so it doesn’t harm anyone.” i saw myself on a cloud with the buddha also on a cloud above me and i had asked him “what is my philosophy on life? how do i view life” and that was his answer.