Hi Jessa,

Two out of five pregnancies end in miscarriage. I have three children and have had five pregnancies. “Why should I be different from everybody else?” Those are the statistics. It’s not fun when you see yourself part of a statistic. We want our pregnancies to be magical and a blessed time. A dirty little secret of being female is that pregnancies are messy and dangerous. In the old days we might not be alive after giving birth (to a stillborn or live birth). I know I wouldn’t.

Spiritually we live in a fallen world. God blesses us at times (and seems to take His time!) but at other times we are left to duke it out on our own. As part of the natural order on this planet. Where not all births are live or healthy ones.

I was a mess both times. I’d feel all the feels. My family let me get angry and storm off at inappropriate times. And in fact encouraged it. It was very sad, but the pregnancies themselves somehow brought Light to me and their losses taught me compassion and that I am human.

Blessings,

Inky

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