I am the archetypal Tannhauser. I am a mere minstrel caught between two worlds. The otherworld wishes to consume me, and I am trying to stop it. There is a spirit with me and it emanates love at a level I find overpowering.

I awoke at 3 am this morning to find my body posed in a yogic posture. (I DON’T do YOGA!) I was on my back, my right leg bent at the knee with the sole of my right foot resting against my left leg. My right hand was raised above my head in some sort of kriya/mudra position, while my left hand rested on my stomach. The first word which came to my mind was ‘Shiva’. I thought of the Shiva dancing statue. Bear it in mind I am supposed to be a Roman Catholic. We aren’t supposed to entertain such things.

I appreciate your help. Anita was of no help to me whatsover. She is supposed to be running a forum based upon enlightenment and spirituality, yet she plainly shows none of these things and is an outright materialist and atheist. I may as well go and talk to the average person on the street about my problems. She thinks it can all be cured by drugging me into a stupor.

You say ‘please don’t say there is no God’. But how can I believe in a God that allows this to happen to me? That allows or ordains a process which cripples my faith and beliefs and stops me from praying? Surely God can’t exist or He/It has to be the biggest prankster in the Universe. Why would He/It break my faith and sow doubt and confusion? Why point to the gods of ancient Rome when the Roman church no longer worships them? Why show me all these gods and goddesses of Roman, Grecian and Norse mythology when He is a MONOTHEISTIC GOD?!!!!

Thank you for your help, H8. I am very grateful for it.

Best wishes,
Tannhauser