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May 3, 2017 at 8:41 pm #147999
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InactiveHello all i am so happy that this is here. I am 30 years old I have been placed on a board of directors. I am the youngest participant there and I am a woman the board is mostly dominated by older men and business men at that who have been involved in this organization for years. I am finding it increasingly hard to attend theses meetings lately due to level of commitment physical exhaustion and politics between the various members. Now I have injected myself into it in several different ways which include alerting the board chair of another board member who was gossiping about him and seeking to influence an election which created distrust between myself and the person and possibly my fellow colleagues, I also tend to speak alot at the board meetings and when I started I also tended to get alot of feedback from people to not talk so much and ask other members about things since they have been there longer. I also find they they have high expectations of my participation in events and meetings which are very frequent and require me to be present on weekends and weeknights. When i could not participate as frequently, people tended to ask me how i was doing and in return I would ask for their reassurance feedback how i am doing
It seems like the board just wants to push thier agenda and not really change anything thier mind is set on decisions and I am concerned that my personality does not fit in and at this point my input is not as valuable and I am even becoming an annoyancemy husbands employer is on my board as well and he says not to upset her.
I want to prosper here but also get along with everyone and at the same time be myself and make a difference
Any feedback for this situation is appreciated
Thank you guys
May 4, 2017 at 7:58 am #148025Anonymous
GuestDear Julia:
You brought up different issues here. One glaring problem, for me, is that your husband’s employer is on the board, and that may present a conflict-of-interest and possible complications. For that reason alone, it may be a good idea for you to withdraw from this board.
The advice that you talk less and listen more, therefore, to other members, is a good idea, not only at the board but anywhere else.
Third issue: if your agenda being on the board is very different than others, it is like driving a car with a few drivers, you turn the driving wheel east, another member- west and yet another backward. The result- a mess, no… forward movement and maybe an accident. If there is no common goal that is more powerful in execution than individual agendas, the board is ineffective, useless. If that is the case, it is another reason to withdraw from it.
anita
May 5, 2017 at 4:49 am #148097Inky
ParticipantHi Julia,
There is drama in every board. Believe me.
I agree with anita that your DH’s employer being on is a huge conflict of interest. If you want a likely excuse to get out, there it is!
The other problem is you’re relatively young, and probably have a life. These older members, this probably IS their life, thus the frequent meetings. And I’ve noticed (for me) that people don’t take you seriously until you’re 40.
I suggest staying with it for a good year and then move on to different pastures.
Best,
Inky
May 6, 2017 at 11:03 pm #148309Anonymous
InactiveThanks Inky
Its a tough situation because I do not want to burn any bridges or retreat. Ive been involved going on two years now. Also your right there is a very high conflict and I have to figure out how to make that work.But somewhere along it looks like I will have to be more straightforward about thier expectations and my commitments which has been a longtime challenge because I always say yes and want to help everyone and everything. Now I am finding that I also have to work on myself within this group sitting silent because I am not all silent i just want to participate and make a difference sometimes it can be too often i have to work on improving my communication reliabilty trustworthiness which is all very hard for me because Its hard to change myself esp. When i feel or think something im very impulsive This thought of how I could be better stays with me
May 6, 2017 at 11:53 pm #148311Anonymous
InactiveAnita thanks for your strength the point that you made about board interests and metaphor about driving was right on point. Also conflict of interest struck a note. So now I will have to make a plan to address that myself and see where I will go with this
May 7, 2017 at 7:22 am #148333Anonymous
GuestDear Julia:
You are welcome. You wrote above: “Now I am finding that I also have to work on myself within this group sitting silent… When i feel or think something im very impulsive”-
This group setting, the board of directors, can be an opportunity for you to practice patience and thorough thinking before speaking, that is, not speaking impulsively. I wonder when/ why this habit of speaking impulsively started (is it a fear of not being heard? Of having to voice your thoughts because you may not have the opportunity later?)
anita
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